Mad Lamer DoDo Me

Smile!

2010-07-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

what a start

2010-06-26T16:09:00.002+08:00

after like decades, I've decided to put yet another entry here.
they say... only keep the good memories and forget the bad ones.
if blogging is a way of jotting down your memories and remembering it...
I say... blabber away those bad memories on blog and keep the good ones in your heart.

ever since I started internship, I find myself sighing more and more.
indah and I keep reminding ourselves how age is catching up with us. its bad.
it doesn't help when FYP is an ongoing thing I have to sort out.

I was disgusted.
By the ugly humans...

Like what kate says... it feels awful to be treated like second-class citizens.
I hate double-standards. I hate it whenever you say one thing but performs another. I hate people who don't even know what's call respect.

I must say... joining the club makes me stronger and I've learnt so much stuff that I don't even know how to word it here.
If you challenge me... I will not hesistate to slap you back.
Of course, I've also learnt that this comes with a consequence.
It may sometimes be good... sometimes bad. You'll never know.
The key is how to give it a nice ending.
Something that you will never regret for doing what you've did.
I'm still learning the art of it.

Interestingly, my fyp topic on Emotional Intelligence is slowly casting itself on me.
Research says...Having the ability to manage one's own emotions and others is definitely not easy to possess. Even if you have high EI, doesn't mean that the outcome is gonna be a satisfactory one. I totally agree with it. No wonder they say ... always be scientific. Even things like emotions can be explained thru research. Wow.

And if you're confused on what's happening to me right now... I'll give you a gist of the outcome.
I'm on the verge of deciding if I should get both my manager and her daughter into really really big trouble. Even to the extent of getting laid off I believe.
I have already offended my tutor and she has already said "your grades are in my hand" - somewhere along that line.
I hate my company and how the people treats interns there. Trust me... too many things have happened to make me feel this way.

I've not regretted for the decisions I've made.
I'm just going through... whats call... the aftermath of my actions. Hah!

seen enough

2010-04-09T15:11:00.002+08:00

I've seen enough of nonsense.
Why work so hard for them when people don't appreciate?
Why fight through so hard when ultimately people just ignore you but only to find out that they did it not because you are not making sense but just that somebody else has a "louder" say.
Why try so hard when you know that you could easily shirk off responsibilities and pretend that nothing happened?
Why try to make yourself heard when you have no say?

I won't deem this as unfair cos I chose this path...

How ugly can humans be? If animals can talk, I bet they can answer that. Be ashamed, humans.

this is bad

2010-03-27T10:07:00.001+08:00

I can't imagine how can one feel the ups and downs in just one night.
I'm falling apart..

i guess there's still other things to be happy about

2010-03-11T19:52:00.002+08:00

a thank you email from someone you don't know.
tests papers with grades that took me by surprise.
getting a professor for your FYP just 2 days before deadline.
have a project topic that you think is interesting.
having energy and attention for straight 6hours of lessons.
sister coming back from Vietnam.
seeing my relative in a place i dun expect - school.
hearing from my own committee member that they have learnt something from me.
.
.
.
everything seem to slowly fall in place.
maybe i hasnt swayed too much from the path I've chose... i just lost focus.
wish me luck. :)

things that make me happy now...

2010-03-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

THINGS THAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY NOW.

weird stuff are all around us.

2010-03-05T15:41:00.003+08:00

I chance upon this research article while doing my literature review for FYP. And guess what I've found?

The pragmatics of swearing

The main purpose of swearing is to express emotions, especially anger and frustration. Swear words are well suited to express emotion as their primary meanings are connotative. The emotional impact of swearing depends on one's experience with a culture and its language conventions. A cognitive psychological framework is used to account for swearing in a variety of contexts and provide a link to impoliteness research. In support of this framework, native and non-native English-speaking college students rated the offensiveness and likelihood of hypothetical scenarios involving taboo words. The ratings demonstrated that appropriateness of swearing is highly contextually variable, dependent on speaker-listener relationship, social-physical context, and particular word used. Additionally, offensiveness ratings were shown to depend on gender (for native speakers) and English experience (for non-native speakers). Collectively these data support the idea that it takes time for speakers to learn where, when, and with whom swearing is appropriate.

I definitely didn't know that swearing can form the basis for a research paper too! Will be quite interesting if this were my main topic of interest. :P

Being random...

2010-03-04T19:49:00.003+08:00

Was talking to Kate about this violent teacher I had when I was in Primary 4. Every Friday is Fruity Friday and we're suppose to bring fruits to school. No fruit? Get prepared to be hit by the blackboard duster! OUCH.

No wonder i feel that I have lesser time now... -.-

Grr...

2010-03-03T23:39:00.001+08:00

Looking for something...

2010-02-28T19:27:00.001+08:00

i found this in the midst of the notes.

2010-02-22T18:24:00.001+08:00

If I lack the courage to start, I have already finished. One thing I can't recycle is wasted time.

Nothing seems right..

2010-02-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

R.I.P

2010-02-01T14:43:00.002+08:00

Thank you to...

Ivy, Marcella, Judith, Anh, Vicki, Catherine, Yi Chi, Yao Fei, Yang Wei, Quan Ming, Wynn, Stephen, Gary, Fahmi, Ka Diam, Simon, Nevin, Mavis, Xin Yi, Huai Ying, Felicia, Kate, Jie Xin, Jessica, Tang Lin, Jonna, Louis, Yi Hui, Fazillah, Quan Rui, Trevor, Prof Klaus, Mdm Lau and Prof Douglas...

For your concern and encourgements during this difficult time.
We'll stay strong.

gosh.

2010-01-20T23:37:00.001+08:00

having gastric pain during times like this doesn't help.
check it out if im still alive after next week plx.

-,-

2010-01-08T22:55:00.001+08:00

I will marry whoever can cook a plate of nice Pat Thai. -.-

awww..

2009-12-18T15:38:00.004+08:00

the moment when i open my eyes this morning ... my ultimate cutie is just right beside my bed (he was using my body as his hide and seek "wall" while playing with my mum. haha!).

awwww... that sweetness. i guess thats probably one the sweetest thing anyone can experience in the morning.

have i ever shown u my sweetie?

here's it! :P

he looks so small here...

i was just telling amy the other day that my cat is definitely not one of the most handsome strays i've ever seen but definitely one of the smartest who knows exactly how to express himself. :))

Responsibility?

2009-12-17T14:22:00.002+08:00

...

2009-12-10T21:43:00.003+08:00

she's feeling tired and she wonders why.
where's the drive and where's the goal?
where's the passion that she used to follow?
is this good or is this bad?
how she wish for just a rest.
maybe its time for her to know...
that its not too hard to be bold.
to lead a life that no one might follow,
and to show the world what they ought to know.
the world is full of dont knows and knows..
for all you know, you just need to follow your soul,
and you'll stand tall, fine and strong.
---
zen is feeling tired @ 9.54pm, time to move on.

ok.. i was not revising.. >.<

2009-11-19T17:51:00.002+08:00

The Zombie Bite Calculator

2009-11-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

Created by Oatmeal

oh wells

2009-11-13T02:48:00.003+08:00

its not that i havent forgiven u...its just that we can never be friends again.
i no longer know how to face u. -sigh-

yet another suggestion...

2009-11-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

Anyone? LOL!

another great man..

2009-11-04T00:48:00.005+08:00

today i jus realised...
if u throw me out of school..i'll still be fine. so wth am i doin in sch? -.-

anyway, i saw sth jus now and thot anyone from BIT will at least smile when u see this:
wad an interesting suggestion for me to do! anyone interested? lol

Quote!!!

2009-09-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater.
If you give her a sperm, she'll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit!

Hahaha!!!

this is bullshit

2009-09-06T18:34:00.003+08:00

Appetite spells three wolves' doom in Switzerland
AFP - Friday, August 28

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GENEVA (AFP) - - It is unclear if the three wolves were too greedy or simply hungry, but what is certain is that by killing more sheep than they should, they have violated Swiss law.

Swiss authorities have issued a death warrant for the three offending wolves originating from Italy and France, and wardens have 60 days to hunt them down.

Over the last few weeks, herders raised the alarm that their sheep were being attacked.
Dozens have been reported to have fallen prey in western Switzerland's canton Valais, with some 15 sheep killed on the night of August 1 and 2 alone. Meanwhile, 27 sheep were killed in July in the central Swiss canton of Lucerne.

Unbeknownst to the predators, the rampage had exceeded those tolerated under the official quota.
Swiss law allows predators to kill only 35 animals in four months, while in a month, the quota is 25.
However, that limit falls to 15 a month for protected herds, as in the case of the wolves' prey.
Animals violating this law can be shot.
Taking into account the recent damage, cantonal authorities in Valais and Lucerne in early August gave their nod to hunt down the three guilty wolves.
The first was killed on August 20.

"When the wolf was on the way back in the early morning, it was less suspicious. It was at this moment when the warden surprised it. He was alone, 150 metres from the wolf, when he shot it," said Jacques Blanc, deputy chief of Valais' hunting service.

The other two wolves may have to raise their guard, as some 20 wardens from the two cantons will be lying in wait through September.

Environment groups are however up in arms against the cantons' decision.
For conservation group WWF, the decision to hunt these wolves was made "too quickly." It has therefore put forward an appeal to the judicial authorities.

"In most cases, the sheep which were attacked had not been efficiently protected," said WWF's spokeswoman Pierrette Rey.
She added that if the wolves had such a good haul on the night of August 1, they were perhaps aided by fireworks set off amid the Swiss National Day celebrations that prompted the sheep to wander out of their pens.

But farmers want the animal eliminated from Swiss soil.
Wolves had disappeared from Swiss territories in the last century but after several appearances since 1995, they seem to have returned more permanently.
For the head of the association of herders in Valais Romand, Florian Volluz, wolves "have no place here."

He said he was "exasperated by a situation that has lasted 15 years," adding that protection measures proposed by the authorities, such as installation of enclosures, guards, and watch dogs, were "inefficient."
"These measures are like bandaging a wooden leg," said Volluz, who believes that the only solution is to root out the wolves.
His troubles may be far from over.

While the 12 wolves known to be in Switzerland have not formed into a pack, they may soon do so, said the Swiss Federal Office of the Environment's species management chief Thomas Briner.
"At the moment, the young males are looking for new territories and the first packs will form because there are two females," he said.
Once the first cubs emerge, the wolf could once again become a permanent resident of the Swiss alps.

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THIS IS BULLSHIT!

exhausted

2009-08-30T14:15:00.002+08:00

zen is not happy now.
if only she can be more decisive.
if only she dun have to live with whatever morale high grounds she's on now.
if only she can stop taking things too personal.
if only she's stronger.
if only ... this would stop.

-.-

2009-08-25T14:53:00.001+08:00

life s*** for me right now.

sigh

2009-08-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

not many people know what im going thru..
what happened..
i wish i had the energy to even share..

but still..
would like to thank some pple who helped.
some wanted to.. but not of much help.
some thot they didn't.. but they did.
some wish to.. and they did.

its over?

2009-08-02T12:22:00.003+08:00

seems like I got use to not working at Pet Movers faster than I thought I will be.
I'm glad that I get to talk to my boss during my last day..
we had a very very long talk and it was totally inspirational talking to him.
It's just a one hour plus talk and I've learnt so many things from him.

A few days ago... I woke up thinking of my future plans.
I realised.. I'm not going to sit back and do nth.
I've got so many dreams and ambition that I want to fulfill.
I'm on the right track so far...
Although I'm not too sure if these dreams came after I took the road or I took the route leading to it. Either way, I'm on it.
Trust me.. 5 years later.. Zenith will definitely not be any other ordinary humans walking on the street.
She might look ordinary when u see her on the street... but if u asked her what has been going thru in her life in these 5 years.. I'm sure she will not tell u anything ordinary.

Today.. kinda marks the end of our struggle. He lost his beloved dog.. it seems like he's one of his closest kin. despite the pain, he still continue trying very hard to please me... and today.. after all the struggles and all... we've decided to end it once and for all. finally. surprisingly, today i came across this article ... 99 facts about guys. haha.. alot applies to him i think. LOL.

Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.
Guys hate other flirts.
A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.
Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.
Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.
Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.
Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
When guys want to meet your parents. Let them. …….dont think so
Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise
Guys cry!!!
Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
Guys can never dream and hope too much.
Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.
Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands……yeh rite - watever.
Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow”. ……so true.
You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
Guys hate gays!
Guys love their moms.
A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.
You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
Like Eve, girls are guysâ€™ weaknesses.
Guys are very open about themselves.
It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.
No guy is bad when he is courting
Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.
Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice…….very true.
A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. ……..sumtimes.
Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
Guys virtually brag about anything.
Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
Guys think too much.
Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.
Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!……very true.
Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.
You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed P**** with their girlfriends…..sumtimes depends wen they want sumat.
When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.
When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”……sumtimes.
Guys don’t really have final decisions.
When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him….very important.
If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
Guys like femininity not feebleness.
Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
Guys love girls who can cook or bake. ….they love u regardless.
Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!……true but only wen the guys are ready 2be settled down.
A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.
Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.
Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.
When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed by you or he’s criticizing you.
When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!
If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.
Guys hate girls who overreact. ……sumtimes.
Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.

Seriously.. so many points applies to him. seems like he really loves me alot.
When he cries over the phone the other day.. i didnt say anything.. for i really dunno how to comfort a person ..
I come to realise... i hasnt do anything for him at all... all these while what i did to him is only hurting him.
He said he has taken more than what he ought to be taking.. but seriously.. im the one keep taking and he's always the one keep giving.. which made me feel so bad.

i dun have good memory but i have a heart that cares at least

2009-07-10T16:46:00.001+08:00

if u see this..
pls say hi.

jonna.. tis is specially typed for you!

2009-06-25T13:15:00.003+08:00

for pple who actually care (friends like jonna).. i shall update on that Tao Hua news. lol.
i took a look at my last post.. and am now thinking wad happened next...

oh yes..
from where i've stopped, i've decided that we should continue to do things that friends would do together. having dinner is definitely alright with me now.. but i have to make sure that he dun misinterpret. but come to think of it.. i hasnt accept any dinner invitations from him till now.

every night we are still sms-ing each other.
every night he's still reminding me how much he wish to have me and how much he miss me (although we jus parted) and how much he wish to have a chance from me.
every night i have been telling him that my answer is still the same... if i have no special feelings for him, we will remain as friends (we've both make a promise tat no matter wads my decision eventually, we will not lose each other as friends)

jus a little hipcup the other day.
he drove me back as usual but he said nth on the way back. sensing sth is not right, i didnt say anything either.. so we both remain silent throughout the journey.
when i finally reached (phew! i cant stand the awkwardness), he didnt ask me to give him a call/sms when i reach home (he will nvr fail to say this whenever i get down), that kinda puzzled me but trust me, for one minute, im glad he didnt... cos this might symbolise that he has given up! haha.
anyways, i didnt quite get it for wad happened to him but jus thought tat he's probably feeling down becos he had a bad day.
the very next moment when i reached home, he texted me.
he said sth like.. "i think u are right, we can't be together. u deserve a much much more better man than me." the rest of the msg i couldnt really rmb le..
oh yes, have i ever tell u that he's someone with very very low confidence? that's probably one of the reasons for why i couldnt accept him. i'll tell u the top 10 reasons for why i dun think we can be together later on in this post.

anyways.. so i told him that i will take that as a compliment to me rather than him looking down upon himself. being who i am as usual.. i became a counsellor that night.
apparently, my achievements at work and his blunders at work was contrasted greatly that day.
the blow to him was too huge.
and somehow tat got him all weak and decided to give up.
i mean..i seriously was happy that he has finally given up.. cos i know clearly that its gonna be wasted effort (i told him before but he said no matter wad.. it worth to him alot).
however, seeing him feeling so down, i started counselling him.. he didnt even want to go home. -.-
after a few hrs of sms-ing.. he finally sorted out. BUT! my words made him want me even more the next day. damnnnn... am i stupid or wad? sometimes i really thought to myself.. maybe i really shldnt be too nice. oh man..

and there's one part of the story.. which i will leave it for u guys to ask me if u are interested.

as promised earlier on, i'll list down 10 reasons for why i'm hesistating in accepting him.
1. Low confidence (i said earlier)
2. Blur (blur blur can be cute..but his type of blur usually ended him up into alot of troubles)
3. Not sensitive enuff (i need someone who's sensitive to my feelings.. apparently, he's bad at spotting i think)
4. Doesnt pay attention to details (tis add on to point3)
5. Push to hard (guys.. if u are chasing after a girl.. pls DO NOT sms her every night to ask her for a chance.. if within one day, things would change.. then probably she's gonna change u away the very next day)
6. We barely know each other. (was it like only 3 weeks?)
7. I cant have anyone without ambition/goals in their life.
8. My heart dont pull when im with him alone.
9. I need someone who knows how to joke.
10. He wants me too much.

pasir ris to jurong to pasir ris to jurong and back to bedok... he dun find it a hassle at all... how i wish he can stop giving. haixxx..

Disappointment

2009-06-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

I'm totally disappointed with the situation between us now.
Its no longer the same.
I see no effort, see no meaning to it. Perhaps, u jus want to be out of my life...

Anyways...
My so called tao hua news.. spread like nobody's business.
The whole office was asking "How do u find him? Consider him as a bf?" and they are thinking of one million ways to create "opportunities" for us. omg la.
The usual these days would be him..asking me out for dinner after work. i forgot tonight is the how many times i've rejected.
And after thinking for awhile.. i realised.. JUST DINNER WHAT! x.x
Perhaps im really trying very hard to cut off every single "chance" he's harping on.
He even took a bus down to my bus stop so that we can take cab down to work together tis morning.

Touched? I dun wanna mix gratitude with my real feelings.

wads wrong with me.

2009-06-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

i dunno why..
but my sis jus told me..
when i was in fuji xerox.. that guy was serious abt me.
all the while i took it as a joke... >.<

thats why i say... i dunno why.. but these sorta thing is common on me. esp at workplace. x.x
is it a blessing or curse?

its me la

2009-06-14T18:09:00.002+08:00

yest was hectic till siao.
managers are not around to handle the big stuff..
pple like me are hanging around attending to ALL stuff.
calls... grooming check in... bringing puppies out to show customers... selling puppies... do paperwork for puppy sales... EVERYTHING.
but trust me.. this is finally the time i learnt alot of stuff.
i learn how to operate that damn NETS/VISA machine. nobody bother to teach a newcomer like me. damnnn.

anyways.
its confirmed.
the man who honk honk me the other day is NOT MY BOSS. SHIT! i took a ride from a stranger. call me dumb mannnn...

im an accident prone person.
my nail jus came off yest.. no .. half came off.
and it hurts like shit now.
the huge bottle jus fall onto my leg leaving a blue black mark there.

oh ya.. did i say.. im on MC again?
this damn cough is not leaving me..
yest was like a war for me..
cough, cough, cough.. then have to talk non-stop to customers.. killer.

haha..

2009-06-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

today is consider an eventful day bah.
lets see..
starting from him picking me up for work.. I feel that we are really friends now.. finally!
no more awkwardness between us. ^-^V

so the whole day was filled with ... picking up phones (when i have cough..terrible feeling) & filling up grooming forms in the office.
guess wad.. i managed to sell my first puppy!!!!! A golden retriever somemore!! hahaha!
most of the time i'll use that "discourage" tone when selling to customer cos obviously these are the pple i think they cant commit. tats why i still hasnt got a chance to go thru the puppy sales process.
and guess wad.. the first puppy i sold was to someone who rmbs me!!!! he was the customer whom i've served the other day.. and he has brought his fren along to buy a puppy!!! wahahahaha!!! and he even rmb wad i've said the other day. omg la. the satisfaction in me is so damn great. ^-^V

"wah zen.. u learn to pick up boys liao ah.." alex told me today when i was having a conversation with Ian. -.-
they are seriously deprived of girls there i think..thats why i always tiok target as victim. x.x

believe me.. i start to wonder if this job is really the one for me.

sorted out finally.

2009-06-11T22:56:00.002+08:00

finally sorted everything.
we trashed things out and i told him "its best to remain friends for now".
Come on.. we barely know each other for 2 weeks.
although its obvious he hasnt given up.. but im sure given some time.. he will be able to know whether he's really serious abt this.
i'll take it that he has never said anything. phew!

jus another episode when im sick.

2009-06-11T12:49:00.003+08:00

as expected, im on MC today (together with my sis)
yest night was pretty drama for me.
was looking for Eric's and Alex's HP number .. and the only person i can get that from is him.
so i dropped him an sms asking for it.
however, he only got back to me like 4hrs later.
he called to explain (which is unnecessary) and asked if i've seen a doc, what the doc say etc etc.
and told me tat he will be sending me the contacts after he got home..
which i waited until like 11plus. -.-
anyways.. thats beside the point.
the nxt thing he told me came as a burden.

after i got the contacts.. i msg Alex and Eric, hoping that they wouldnt mind that i absent myself on a busy & hectic day.
as expected, alex was fine with it (he wont be there today anyway) and after awhile.. eric replied.
maybe its really becos im a girl.. he treat me really differently from the rest of them. words he replied is nowhere near the hostile words he used on others.

so..back to him. he asked if im free for sms.. so out of curiousity and concern, i said im alright with it (actually the fever is really killing me fast).
he asked if im working today.. cos he misses me. x.x
he told me to rest more cos his heart hurts when he sees me like tat, and he added that he submitted his resignation letter liao. (this doesnt came as a surprise.. cos i kinda expected it..)
however, the nxt thing that he said was rather surprising.
"Dunno la... honestly.. i feel so useless when u r around esp. i dunno y.. but i dun wanna be so useless and stupid in front of u..hmm..dont ask me y.. i really dunno"
Initially i thought the main cause of the problem was with Eric's attitude towards him..
never did i realise that i was the cause of it, seriously.
so i went on the apologise for making him feel tat way..
and he replied saying that he dont mean that its my fault..and if i really apologise for that..he's gonna leave for sure. -.- he said he really mind how i actually see him. (oh wells...)

anyways... i keep emphasizing that he's a nice COLLEAGUE to have.. and a nice FRIEND to have. but i dunno if he really gets it.
pple.. tell me wad shld i do.
all i can tell him is "Dont be bothered abt how others look at u, just be urself"
but no matter what words i say to him..
he still end off by saying "thanks for being so nice.. nite dear..." those kinda thingy.

the last thing i've expected..
I AM ONE OF THE CAUSES FOR HIS RESIGNATON?!

every careful steps...

2009-06-10T15:43:00.003+08:00

im on off today! haha!
but im sick. x.x
i knew this day gonna come .. but it came too soon..
working everyday.. from 9am-7pm really can kill.
cuts and bruises everywhere.
and am down with fever and cough now.. damnit.

becos he's really down in mood these days..
and i wanted to say sth to cheer him up..
and ended up in this.. "Thanks...U're being very sweet"
I hope i didnt give any wrong impression cos he really need some encourgements.
am i worrying too much?
alex... being the nosey body... keep teasing like nobody's biz.. tsk!

i choose to walk out the other day..
and alex asked me why..
i jus pass it off saying that "im in a rush ma"..
but apparently, they came up with a theory that.. i dont like them. hahaha!
it seems tat alex is pretty shocked that the devil manager, eric offered me a ride out yest.. the shock on his face made me go wondering "how come..."

and guess wad..
till now i still dunno how my boss looks like.. hahaha!
he jus come into office once in awhite to have a chat with his daughter.. and poof! off he goes for running.
anyway.. yest i walked in again.
and while i was almost reaching.. a car Honk Honk me... so i turned and saw an uncle inside.
he LOOKS LIKE my boss la...
and he offer a ride in..
so i thought he WAS my boss..
until he started asking.. "going to work ah? stopping at the turn in front? but the gate is close here?"
and i cant help but start wondering maybe...maybe ... he's not my boss! OMG@!
i took a ride from a stranger. -.- probably becos i was tired from the walk bah... hahahaha!

the steps to make someone afraid of picking up ur call.

2009-06-08T00:10:00.004+08:00

1. Every night tell her to sleep early.
2. Fetch her to and fro from work everyday.
3. Prompt her to see if she has a bf.
4. Call her Dear.
5. Ask her out for dinner after work. Doesn't work out? Ask again. Still don't work out? Offer to pay for it! Even if she wants to bring her sister along! But, put her sis at the back of the car.
6. Ask her for her birthday.
7. Ask for her age.
8. Drive her to Jurong even if u are staying in Tampines.
9. Buy her drinks when she didnt order for it.
10. Call to ask if she's safely back home after knowing that she's going home late.
11. Even if life sucks like hell... call her to inform that u wont be able to drive her to work and take it like just part of ur responsibility to do that when she actually dont mind even if u dont bother.. i mean.. seriously... she's not suppose to have Free Transport anyway!

P.S. All the above steps will work perfectly well once its confirmed that the girl has no interest/chemistry with u.

sian...

2009-06-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

shit la.. i was almost there and alex has to spoil my plan!!!!! >.<

why!!!!

2009-06-06T00:44:00.003+08:00

WHY AM I IN THIS SORTA SHIT AGAIN! >.<
yh.. lets hope ur way works!

and all of a sudden (seriously.. i dunno why everything happen like a surprise everyday), i became the president for CMN... jus like how i became part of the main comm in yr 1 and how i become the cafe coordinator thereafter.. all came as surprises.. -.-

i finally got to play with puppies today!! thanks alex!! hahahaha! Managed to hug a Maltese and Husky.. weeee~!

alrighty pple.. pray hard for me that tml will be a fine start of weekend for me.. the horror in me is getting extremely uncontrollable by the number of "reminders" from colleagues that tml is gonna be CHAOS. ........

woo hoo~!

2009-06-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

till now i still cant believe im in this job already!!!
it is perhaps one of the best jobs i will ever get i suppose? HOPEFULLY.
u get to see dogs/cats everyday..
u get to take care of them everyday..
u get to learn pets accessories sales..
u get to do office work as well..
i really hope Alex would let me go help out at the boarding area after some time.. haha...

anyways..
SH jus emailed me to ask if i wanna run for president nxt yr...
i dunno why they think im up to the task.. cos apparently, i think i got more to learn...
hrm... *thinking hard*

now tat my weekends are all occupied..
im worried that i will not have time for my peeps.. shit.
blame it on impromtu stuff tat are so impt. >.<

seems like Havoc need SM quite badly..
jus too bad that i cant attend seniors camp. x.x

i need to find time badly to do my cats management stuff...
powerpoint and pet taxi list.. have been doing mad calling this afternoon..still cant finish the list tat i have...wahhhhhhh...

people, guess wad? despite my hectic work im gonna have from now on... i will still be going back hall to feed my dear cats...
frankly speaking... i cant bear to let go i think..
even if im not an official cat feeder for next academic yr.. i will still miss them so much..
especially hall 5 cats which we have trained them till now...
from a pure stray to a cat that will greet and play with u is sth that gains u so much satisfaction, seriously.
looking at how River (the cat that i finally named!) is getting use to feeders like us and not hissing at us anymore.. i finally understand why there's such a saying that "all animals can be trained.. only if owner are willing to"

weee!

2009-05-31T14:25:00.002+08:00

yea!! managed to do kimbap a few days ago.. :)))
and also managed to do a very nice sandwich for my breakfast! wahahahah! i was amazed with myself throughout my meal. lolx! must make for sisters soon! haha.

and guess wad? i bought the claypot that koreans love to use to make their soup!! that's wad im always looking for!! must find one day to go "Cooking with Boram" ! Go korp korp traditional korean recipes and cooking tips from Boram. Hiak Hiak Hiak Hiak!!

Haha!

2009-05-30T00:47:00.005+08:00

Manage to catch quite a number of good photos of Teddy on Wed when I was feeding him. Heh heh! ((:

Have a great weekend peeps!!! :))

Quote of the day!

2009-05-27T13:44:00.001+08:00

"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way in which its animals are treated." - M. Gandhi

I wonder how Singapore fair if thats the case?

once again...

2009-05-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

im amazed with how much effort i've put in to get wad i longged for...
the push behind me is just too incredible that i can hardly believe it.
amazingggg...

oh yes..
did i mention how much recipes i've tried over this holiday?
that feeling of satisfaction is so good!!!
from korean soon-du-bul chigae to spicy sticky rice cake to japanese mochi to honey pork ribs to sambal stingray.. woo hoo!!! the kitchen is mineeeeeee~~~~!! wahahahahhaa!!! :D

The Fine Line...

2009-05-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

There's a fine line between someone being innocently concern .. and someone who is just out to get you by saying sth unpleasing.
Apparently, not all people are good at distinguishing it.

There's a fine line between someone being genuine .. and someone who is just out to fake their way thru by saying... "how are u?".
Apparently, not all are really THAT concerned isnt it?

There's a fine line between making friends .. and purely networking.
Now, who's the true one?

There's always a fine line between this and that ..
but... who cares?

wells..

2009-05-23T23:33:00.002+08:00

it has been quite long..

since i need a joke from someone...

i NEED sth to cheer me up.

haix.

o.o"

2009-05-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

oh man... that's another weirdo added to the list...
shoo shoo~~!

oh man...

2009-05-07T01:39:00.002+08:00

I'm a worried old mama... >.<
Larry just vomitted everything i fed it tonight...
definitely not a good sign. haiz...

I was just telling my other 3 feeders that... hopefully... he will not die within these 2 years..
seriously.. i will cry myself for the whole night for sure...
i still rmb how long i cried the last time my tortise left me..

ivy said to me the other time... that she promised herself not to cry when a cat dies...
but still... she did not manage to control when one died.

as much as things contradict... i want to be the one who bids farewell when larry leaves...
and yet i dun want to witness his death. it will jus hurt too much.
perhaps im jus selfish.
however, if he wish that i was there... i would want to be.
argh.. why am i talking abt this... long life larry!! T-T

now then i realised...
that i have a long scratch from my dear kitty aka ginger aka silver. puch. i call it whatever names i want whenever i see it. haha! shld stick with one name... but i dunno wad to give her.. oh man...
this long scratch was left behind when she's trying to prevent me from walking away from her.
my sweetie jus yearns to play... and perhaps jus warning me that that road is hazardous (a cat jus died in a car accident on that stretch of road the other day)
too bad i was in a rush to meet the feeders.. if not i would have stayed to play with her.

When was the last time i blogged?

2009-05-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

I forgot.

Life has been great so far.
However, I thought it could have been better.
Yea.. Humans.

Still pondering over what specialisation should I choose...
Apparently.. the whole world is telling me HR is better than Marketing.
Im just tempted by the fact that Marketing has lesser exams as compared to HR.
Exams are horrible creatures. They will come and snap u apart when u see them. No matter what sorta preparations u go in with.. it will prove to be useless in confrontation with them. Trust me... it's THAT scary... I dun wanna mess with them unless I HAVE to.

Anyways, since I've gone thru the fight with Level 1 monsters... its time to decide my Level 2 ones.
Marketing: A level full of little tiny monsters and once you've kill all of them, you will only need to deal with a few big ones to pass that level.
HR: A level that test your writting and memory skills. Kill those monsters with your typing/writting skills...plus a little memory to solve this level full of puzzles.
IT: You've deal with them before in the Noob level. However, in this level, full of uncertainty... are u sure u can STILL handle them?
Actuarial Science: Kill those monsters with figures!!! If u are good at numbers... you will slaughter them with no sweat!
Banking and Finance: Big monsters Big monsters...TILL THE END.
Tourism: The option to this level has already passed. You are not allowed to choose this option at this stage. Thank you.

Seriously.. Im like fighting a battle in NTU. 2 more levels and be gone NTU! hiak hiak hiak.

-----

I can't express how much I miss my Darlie...
He has been missing for so long.
The last night I saw him... I couldn't help holding back my tears.
He was so weak... I know I was silly but I really thought that was my last night I will ever see him. The feeling was very much like he's going to leave soon... very soon... I stayed and didn't want to leave him... and he just closed his eyes... as if telling me that it was time for me to go.
I left him. He opened his eyes again when I walked away..

Since that night... no one has ever seen him...
I've searched high and low for him.. but couldnt see him anywhere. I hope he's fine. I've seen so many strays... but he's the only one that is born with a little imperfection and is still so beautiful in my eyes.

Perhaps thats the reason for why I didn't want to have any pets in the first place...
Im too emotionally attached to them. Even for short period of time. Let alone living with them thru their entire life.
I don't think I can handle the sadness when they decide to leave one day.

zen... u need to be much more stronger than this...

on a lighter note... people!! ask me out before i find a job!!!! >.<

A day in Zen's life

2009-03-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

This is a Tuesday in Zen's life...
She woke up at 8.30am...when the alarm went off.

she took her handphone... and saw 3 messages. 2 from shirley and 1 from ming wei.

shirley asked her twice if she's going for today's lecture... shirley said that she wont be going...and asked if she can borrow zen's notes to copy ma. so yes... being such a nice girl... of cos zen said yes (both going to lecture and lending her notes).

ming wei asked her if she wanna meet together with the rest of her FM groupmates to da bao breakfast at Can A. its a routine for them... to have breakfast together. its quite nice actually. however, she has already promised her roomie, lina to have breakfast together. so yeaps.. she say no no to Ming wei. anyway, it has been quite long since they had the $1.50 breakfast together.

so she gave herself the privilege to read these messages on her bed.. lying down there lazily. and she told herself.. another 15mins more. so she slept till 8.45am. woke up. brush teeth. bath. get ready to go out at 9.30am for breakfast.

ate $1.50 breakfast. overcooked the eggs a little. took shuttle bus to sch with lina. saw a few peeps on the bus. went down. and realised that both lina and zen are too early. listen to the very last acctg lecture and ended early!! woo hoo. for the very first time. sayonara to lina and she bought subway back hall for lunch. met KT in shuttle bus when on the way back. chat chat chat..say bb and reached hall.

she started to slack abit here and there..check emails...and had her lunch. she realised that she has forgotten everything that she has revised. damnnnn... so she recap again.. and that took her all the way till dinner time. oh mannnn....terrible girl. cos she explored abit and started to tune in to internet radio for her hearing pleasure while torturing herself with the revision. tat explains why she took so long to RECAP!

oh yes.. before dinner.. she got a call from pohlu. asking her on where the crew shirts were...
Zen: Somewhere in the store room la..
PohLu: where... very luan leh...
Zen: huh.. i dunno leh.. SnP put de...
PohLu: in a box ah?
Zen: yah.. shld be...
Poh Lu: how does the box look like???
Zen: ehhhhh.... quite tall de... haiya.. box means box ma.. how to describe leh!
Poh Lu: haha. okok... i go find.. thank you.

yeaps. so she wasnt of much help. but pohlu did manage to find it in the end. so clever. lolx. oh yes.. zen dont anyhow praise pple... so the reason for why she praised him is becos she dun wanna owe poh lu for saying that she's the sweetest. and after a reminder from him.. zen started to mass sms people who owe her $$$$! this is not the first time she's doing this.. she has already sent out 1 email... 2 smses before that... this is the 3rd sms she's sending out. and hopefully it gets thru their thick head that THEY OWE HER MONEY!

anyway.. yes.. she gave CLEAR and PRECISE instruction on how to return the $ that they owe since long long ago...so she was confident that everyone will return except for Pengwee who kindly told her the reason for why he cant return today.

she went for dinner and had plum sauce chicken. saw shi song... but missed kevin. collected $ from him and hopefully the rest will return zen by tonight. kevin came shortly after that. and meanwhile.. she was trying to sort some video editing for ngeepoo. eventually.. she still couldnt avoid that "muacks" from him tat he offered yesterday ... almost puke her plum sauce chicken out but thought she shld jus offer this "muacking" to KT instead. haha. zen is always generous. yes. but she's never generous when it comes to wasting time on thick head humans. examples?

she msn-ed a guy. telling him he shld return her the $ by tonight. and that guy conveniently ignored her.. and not only tat.. he set his status to BUSY immediately after she msn him. so polite! and he did this again for the second time when she msn him at 11plus, telling him to return tml instead. argh. zen must have been too nice to him that he's treating her liddat.

those idiots are suppose to meet zen in her room to pass her the $ by 8.30pm... and none of them came. except for kevin. and none of them drop her a sms telling her the reason of watsoever.. she couldnt be bothered anymore.. and went for cat feeding at 9pm.

as usual.. she enjoyed cat feeding. larry, hardy, scourgie (being very AP nowadays), darlie(so happy to see zen and lina that she purred non-stop tonight), teddy, twin#1, tuesday (stucked), twin#2. Poor Tuesday was stucked and didnt know how to get down to get her food. lina and zen tried all ways to get her down.. but all she did was to scratch and bite whatever comes near her...except for food of cos. they decided to leave her there for one night to see if she's smart enuff to come down by herself... its quite obvious that there's a way out.. but she jus couldnt find it... or dont have the courage to jump that high. for a cat of her age... shld be alright... zen thought.

its not as simple as it sound. zen and lina stole 2 chairs from the canteen, 1 ladder from the construction workers site and 1 paper cupboard. they met a friendly uncle who wanted to help.. but got scratched and bite instead. they met kum sum and rachel... who wasnt at all bothered with wad they were doing.. and offer no help at all. they met clarence after tat.. who wanted to help but dunno how to... asking whole lot of questions instead. -.- zen got her toes scratched becos of some stupid damn drain. darlie was so bored tat she lost her appetite. oh yes.. she found a new spot to rest now.

zen went back to her room. bathed. and went back to room. got a terrible headache after tat... she wanted to smash her head right to the table.. but resisted cos there's a quiz tml. its quite bad.. happen almost every night since Saturday.. shld see a doctor soon her mum thought. but haiya..she will jus end up popping panadols... and she realised that she has been sneezing quite alot these few days.. getting sick? oh my ... exams coming la!

and now there she is.... blogging and chatting online. not revising. bad bad bad....

oh no...

2009-02-25T04:45:00.004+08:00

both hardy and i are now pronounced injured.

he got his flesh tore and i got my leg sore.

freaking painful for both of us.

have jus applied the first spray of antibiotics for him.. seems like he didnt retaliate as much as i expected him to be. hehe. such a nice and sweet boy to have.

as for me... my leg is getting worse i think.. sore and painful. got my leg injured while i was busy chasing and hoaxing hardy to my room cos i didnt want him to roam ard in a dangerous place like hall 5.

saw another 2 cuties in hall 13 today.

why on earth would anyone hates their existence i wonder...

other than the fact that one is extremely greedy la!

oh ya.. i have their photos with me!

ta dah!

hahaha...

2009-02-22T02:36:00.001+08:00

he's cute.

....

2009-02-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

this is killing zen...totally.
lets jus hope that she gets the 1 mark she deserves.

jus being random here.. cos jus wanna find an excuse for me to stop thinking abt sch work for 5mins before going to slp. (u know.. u dont slp well when u are still tense up and u did not let ur body relax before u slp? haha. im bullshitting. tats why its called an EXCUSE)

"hint given but i ignored"... this was wad he told me one day before valentine. -.- obviously he got the hint i've given (since long ago i thought)...that is.. im not giving him any chance (come on.. we are not even good friends to begin with). cos basically when he pop tat question..i jus pass it off as a joke. its obvious? i guess so. but apparently.. he ignores it. nvm.

i bet i've jus contacted the most informal supplier EVER. "dont fly us kite can already" .. omg.. can u imagine THAT coming out from the supplier?! haha. even KeFang and I don't talk liddat i tink. lolx! so cute.

i tink academic for me is screwed to the core. how?

i've got this very very big dream that im getting all excited for the past 1 week. it came to me when i was attending one of the acctg lectures.
so real. so exciting. so fun. so near yet so far that kinda feel u know? i've even laid down my first step towards that goal.
its great.. cos getting a good honours degree doesnt seem to be one of the steps toward my goal.. although it might make my life easier.. but still... heck those degree and stuff le la. so wad if i get a second upper? second lower? does it matters? well..at least it doesnt affect my LT goal from what im looking at it right now.

oh yes.. im thinking of doing some voluntary work(animals related of cos) some time soon. gonna search for it fast so that i can do it during my 3mths holiday! woo hoo! anyone interested? lol.... pardon me for this excitement in me. this is like the only thing im living with right now... oh ya.. SPCA is out. haixxx.. i missed the Noah's Ark trip. =((( sad-ed. i shall plan for my own voluntary schedule now! hehe....

argh.

2009-02-11T15:15:00.004+08:00

i know i shldnt be blogging right now.. cos i have loads to clear for my sch work.
2 quizzes, 1 presentation, 1 biobiz assignment, 1 essay.. all by nxt week.
now.. how great is that?

to add it on...
i have pple calling me and tell me to bring sth over to canteen (when im like in hall)... ok. since its my proj too... i shall bring it over.
then the nxt moment, jus when im abt to step out of the rm.. called and tell me "ITS OK.. i think no need to come liao"
like...wth?

i have pple smsing me.. telling me ... i think u shld jus go down and help. for goodness sake, as much as i wanted to, i really have no time! i mean.. seriously. and so? i guess i have to? doesnt seems to me like i have a choice. i know i am being a little selfish over here... but i seriously need the time for my studies. this is like the first time im panicking for it. heck them and say "I AM NOT FREE?" well.. as much as i want to... u have no idea how strong peer pressure is all abt.

i have pple thinking that.. im not helping in either the bazaar or snp stuff. pple saying im not part of pnp becos i cant help for the cast board when its completed. although it was said as a casual remark, i can sense how much they cant understand that i have other commitments too.

totally disregarding the fact that i spent the whole night of yest and this morning, spamming emails to suppliers asking for quotation. bugging kefang like nobody's business jus becos i want the stuff to be delivered by 3pm. how abt the time i used in doin the cast board at its so called conceptualising stage?! entertaining poh lu and his weird ideas? coping with all the smses and calls from pple asking if the stuff are ready? is pple really THAT blind to see all these?

too much sacrifices. worth it?

i cant help it. this sucks. as much as i want to concentrate on my studies, all these have to come. sometimes i really wonder if im here for studies. really.

argh. go back to ur studies zen!!! think positive think positive!

i am back.

2009-01-21T02:15:00.002+08:00

yox!!!!
im proud to say that everything's fine for me now!! haha.
CNY is coming.. and im so looking forward to it!!!! hahahahaha!
and yes.. so many things have happened for the past one week.
a million and one things that i can blogged abt.

was mainly focusing on my CMN stuff.. so yah.. all abt cats cats and more cats. but the things i've learnt and the things i've gained is so much more that im feeling so great now.

im glad to know so many more pple now.
im shocked at how passion can drive me mad sometimes.
i finally know what sorta guy im looking for after so long.
now i know what does CHARMING really means....
i definitely know who is the NOT TO BE. i think u know too.
im glad that shirley and i finally catch up once again!!

despite so many HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY i have..
there's many other ARGH SHIT NO NOT AGAIN thingy i have too...
things like tutorials.. projects.. PnP stuff..

i jus like to jot this down somewhere for PnP.
I personally feel that PnP are always under-recognised for their work done.
Many people only sees the FINAL pdt that we have.. and have totally no idea how much effort and time we have put into it.
Take for example..
Setting up booths in NIE.
without any consensus from PnP, a date is fixed for us to go down and sell the tickets.
Now, what? I got to rush out all my publicity materials, get them printed, contact the office pple that i need to get the booth, get all my publicity materials stamped, print the tickets so that we can sell them on that day. and all these have to be done alongside with the other stuff i need to do.
I dunno how come this came as a big slap on me. i jus go WHAT?!
perhaps its becos i feel that they shld have at least ask PnP if the date they set is alright for us, is the time too tight for us etc.
perhaps its becos i feel that all the stuff that needs to be rushed is to be done mainly by your sincerely here.
perhaps this isnt the only thing that im mad abt. it jus adds up and blow right in front of my face now.
perhaps its jus the bond. i dont feel connected at all.
perhaps im no longer enthu abt all this stuff.. lost the interest and curiousity.
perhaps.. perhaps i jus wanna whine abit.

can someone teach me how to carry a pissed off cat w/o getting scratch or bite? lol.

2nd week of sch...

2009-01-12T09:12:00.012+08:00

i am glad.
glad tat im coping well in sch.
i guess im adapting le. abit slow on tis.. but yah.

as usual.. little little things.. little little reminders to myself...little little effort makes zen a happy girl once again.
encouragements from friends.. even from friends whom u thought u have lost contact with...
got in touch with a few freshies of mine once again. im always glad to have them.
everything seems to move again.
i saw myself again.
now i realised.. i got lost in the crowd previously...
i kept looking back.. thinking i could get back to where i used to be.. how i used to do things ...
not knowing that im going against nothing...but myself.

its good.
everything's good. really.
im lucky.. to have the friends i have now.
thru incidents (that made me go argh initially) ... i saw the truth. i became more sensible. maybe... im even wiser now! haha!

its been a long time since i did this.. but yes.. im gonna do it.

william! he never fails to appear out of nowhere to cheer u up... to encourage u... and to assure u... that u can do it. he's not like those who tell u blar blar blar... and not practising it on himself. a great advisor. a friend to be treasured. always.

darryl! im so glad this bro of mine is surviving his days in poly... haha. i think i can still sense that "no... i dont feel good" aura from him. LOL. im glad that he knows the trick to BI assignments! hahax! a friend i definitely dun wanna lost contact with.

douglas! i know we only got back in touch thru facebook. but still... he will still forever be remembered as the "oh my god... this guy is so kind and sweet..." guy.

desmond! i have like so many desmond-s in my contact list... and this desmond is definitely someone i feel i can always talk to. u can jus go blar blar blar .. blar blar blar... (maybe im long-witted to him =X ).. and the conversation will definitely go on... dont worry dude... BIT is nth to u! very soon... u will be able to defeat it. life dont sucks as much as u think!! hahahaha!

oopx... here's another D...

david! a guy who will every now and then.. pop by and say HI. im very amazed tat he's like one of the very few freshies who will actually pop by my msn jus to ask me how im doing. full of dreams and i believe u will make it big someday!! boxing.. hrm... too violent la... lolx!

very weirdly... the used to be 4Ds still remains. haha...

jun xin! this guy here... seriously speaking.. i got scared of him the other time.. we were at a stage where i feel very uneasy with him..im glad that he manage to sort that out himself.. or was i already very obvious in showing that? anyways... other than the fact that he kill and torture birds (which i seriously hate actually).. the chat that we had last night made me know him better as a person. i know u dont jus open to anyone... but im really glad that u are at least trying to tell me abt it... im sure u can do it dude!!

jun an! this one... very random. for one second.. u will think that he's a great friend to have... for another second... u will feel like punching him and throw him into the sea or sth. oh ya.. hitting with a folder .. tats what he'll say. lolx! if there's one thing u asked me... wad did u gain from joining PnP... i guess knowing him is one. a superbly great advisor. a crapper. someone who will get things done. ok... i shall be nice here boss.. he's not bossy... but have a mind of his own... stubborn? or no no no... erm.. yah... have a mind of his own..i said that already? oopx. praising him is not wad im good at. lolx!!!!

lina! how can i forget abt tis roomie of mine... who nvr fails to remind me how much she loved me. LOL!!!!! a sem has passed and im glad we are surviving with each other in this small.. torn down room. hahahaha... whenever i met with some shit... im always glad that she's there to listen. =))))

louis! if i have to do this sorta dedications every now and then.. or perhaps like 5 yrs once...or even 10yrs once... this guy will forever be somewhere. dont feel bad abt wad u made me felt tat day.. really... it kinda slap and wakes me up... made me think quite abit (u always do that)... from feeding shit in poly... to smashing shit on ur blog after we graduate (although i really didnt and u claim tat i did... lolx)... im always glad to have him ard... minus away all the tortures i gotten from him.. he's really a nice friend to have! lolx!!!!

yi hui! hrm.... how shld i describe him.... tats abit tricky here. i used to think that he's superbly quiet... well... he proved me wrong! i used to think that he's some kinda nerd... well... he proved me wrong! i used to think that he dont joke at all... well... he proved me wrong! i used to think that he will nvr put on weight... well... he did la... nt like wad rey describes him. lolx!!!! i bet there's more to discover in him... right yh? lolx!

rey! or... quan rui.. this guy over here... nvr seems like a friend i know for like... (counting..) ... 7yrs and counting. always ganging up with evil prof to torture me...or rather... i would say.. he likes to add fumes to fire. nevertheless, he's really a great guy. nvr fails to entertain us with his non-stop craps.. of cos.. encouragements from him (although still very funny) is priceless. it dont come often does it?

teng feng! tis one... (u find that MP24 pple are hard to describe u know.. its that love hate kinda feel)... he loves my sister. =X every single thing i said... can somewhat link to my sis... what else can be in ur mind...like.. seriously? lolx! i use to think he's a guy .. who take things lightly... can slack then slack... will nvr put in effort unless he can know chio girls along the way.. but wells... it seems like he can be serious too.

soo guan! my cute little sister.. lolx. i miss the days when we crapped like nobody's business over msn.. i dunno wad got over me the other time when i chat with u..i jus crap like some siao kia.. lolx!! lets not forget how we become sisters ok! neighbours who deposit their brains over at the other's fridge.. ah huh ah huh!! lolx! =)) oh yes.. did i tell u .. sister SG is one of the most ON guys i ever met?

im missing a million and one pple frm my contacts...
pple like jonna, sudar, eileen, faz, gin and paige.

"u havent accepted me in facebook right, tian tian?" my FM tutor asked me this jus now... -.-

first day of sch...

2009-01-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

oh wells....
first day of sch wasnt great at all.
i have to meet ugly pple (their personality)...
selfishness at work. reality in place. truth that left me helpless and they should be ashamed.
damnit.

on the tenth day of christmas...

2009-01-04T00:18:00.004+08:00

met up with MP24, Sister SG and Lina for Faz's belated bdae celebration at city hall.
i felt really bad as I really really really am not enjoying myself there.
it wasnt really THAT bad before Louis asked what happened to me.
seriously...
i couldnt really answer or reply him when he said he no longer see that excitement in me anymore.
i couldnt answer him when he ask me wads bugging me.

i really dunno where to start.. how to start..theres just too many things to say. too many things that bothering me. too many things happening. too little time.
it didnt occur to me that uni is killing zen that fast... that its noticeable to some.
i know... i've changed. im guilty of that.
but some pple only keep wondering... they dunno what i've been going thru...how can they know when we dont talk often? we dont see each other often?
its quite sad... but its a fact that we are trying to keep each other updated on wat we're going thru using mediums like BlogSpot and Facebook.

perhaps we have drifted apart.
i mean... when was the last time we saw each other? when was the last time we had a talk? when was the last time we did sth together or even jus have a chat on MSN?
everyone's busy with their own life... and u cant be expecting everyone to be updating their blog everyday... telling u wads going on with their life right now.
its just the effort. i know im not doin my part well on this.

u think that im not really focusing on anything. but then again... what are the things i have to focus on? do u know? is it that there's too many things that needs my attn that i appears to be not focusing?
im playing it safe? and why on earth would i be joining this and that?
i lost the excitement in me? do u know whats destroying me?
every word hits me. hard. really hard.
it jus kept me thinking...
i will want to defend myself but then again.. another million question came bombarding me.

im sorry but im not a person who speaks well.
im sorry but im not a person who can go blabber blabber all day long abt wads happening to themselves.
im sorry but im not a person who's open abt wads in my mind.
im sorry but im a person who hides what i feel.

pls be kind to me...
if u think i've changed. perhaps i am. who doesn't? but do not judge. unless u really know wads happening.

on the ninth day of christmas...

2009-01-02T22:33:00.003+08:00

woke up early.
in hall becos of boogle game.

Eugene: MUST WIN YOU KNOW!

-stressed-

we can only try out best...
and becos of this...
we hit to the quarters!!! woo hoo~!
thanks to YiQing, Eugene and Esther!! wahahahahha!! our star playerssssss!!!

the empires--- they dunno the rules. and out of the 3 empires i asked.. 2 dont play Boogle.
the players i play against with--- either captain / some pple from mass comm / walking dictionary.
im very glad that i got those with me. in that case.... our other star players can trash the other weaker ones !!! wahahaha.. evil plot but we were lucky.
cant imagine we beat the best hall ... Hall 15!!! woo hoo~! and yet we are in 4th place whereas they're 1st. -.- wad the...
anywayz... it was great!
hockey boys won too... double happiness!
during breaks were Dai-Dee-ing sessions with Joanne/QianTing/Jolene/ShangYi.
after that was dinner in Hall 5. =P

slack here slack there... reply endless smses... and was time to feed the cats! =))))))
we have more and more customers coming to us each day (probably becos Hall2 got stray dogs)...
today we have the regular, Larry!! my dear cat recognise me almost instantly. i dont even need to shake the biscuits anymore. lOL!
had another 2 more rare ones with us today.. the only bad thing is i dunno their names. -.-
think one have skin problem... better consult Danny on this.
oh yes.. none of them were fascinated with the ribbon game i created for them. damnit. i cant imagine Larry actually ignores it TOTALLY! even if it was swinging in front of it. haha.
but im sure it did enjoy it's meal today... im pretty worried for his weight though.. he have difficulty walking down the stairs. haixx...

i tried to find SweetHeart today... but couldnt find him.. where could he have been.... hrm......

oh yes... let me complain a bit here...
"i hate how things are working here...
u guys are just a bunch of selfish morons who wants to get things done in the fastest and easiest way for yourself... and heck abt how the others feel...
call urself BONDED.
when there are peeps who "belongs" to a separate entity.
call urself HELPFUL.
when you said i am suppose to find a solution out for MYSELF.
call urself RICH.
when you want to "borrow" my textbooks for one sem and not buying it from me.
i think u guys better call urself as T-O-O-T."

all these pple... argh. i couldnt care any more for these sorta morons.

on the eighth day of christmas...

2009-01-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

1Jan... The start of the year... i foresee...

1. More hardwork to put into my studies...
2. Heavier workload...
3. More commitment and larger responsibility for CMN...
4. The need to be more diligent...
5. To know more cats in our halls...
6. To continue finding SweetHeart... he probably got looked after by some pple in Hall 1.
7. More challenges...
8. Better time management...
9. To get to know more friends...true ones...
10. Avoiding Prof Chew.
11. Getting a fan in my room..
12. Less meet ups (but i still try to make an effort in meeting up) with some of my friends...

and more...
tonight... i was alone in hall... on 1 Jan.. my first time...

on the seventh day of christmas...

2009-01-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

and yes... today is the day for 2 parties!!
one was at Eming's new hse in Simei..
was really glad to see some of the old colleagues once again..
i got hit by boram... really really hard on the back... u know? usual korean woman?? lolx!!! their smacks are like..woo hoo~! x.x
carl's hair.. is typical korean guy's hair of cos... he definitely dont look anything near Singaporean (although he stayed here for god damn long already) ... keep changing hairstyle is his style i guess. lolx.
Eming is still Eming. LOL! he's still so highly entertaining... haha.
had some food there... and was watching how the Kevin's kid (another korean) beat Jimmy and Carl like nobody's business in Wii... be it Golf or Tennis they are playing. actually i shld watch how Boram plays Boxing on Wii.. must be....... damn real. lolx!
was there for a pretty shortwhile...drove shahnee back home and tadah! back at home!

slack abit here and there... and was time to leave hse again... for BK's hse this time round.
met up with the rest of the OG at Bedok before heading there together...
and initially i thought Brian knows the way very well... until he took us go round and round and more rounds... -.-
but yes.. finally! we reached.
saw those ahem guys playing with Wii pretty EXCITEDLY and NOOB-LY. lolx!
surprisingly... they are not playing sports or anything.. they are playing with some kinds of poking fish games. -.-
anyways.. we proceed on to the BIG feast.
there was endless food on the table really. scary.....
ribs. chicken wings. shephards pie. satay. curry. bread. soup. drinks. apple. salad. pizza. and i definitely have missed some things out......
and somehow...
we got attracted by the show..XiaoNiangRe... and there we are.. watching for 1hr in front of TV.
BK couldnt stand the atmosphere there... like wad? gather together to watch TV? lolx! so he suggested to play indian poker when the show ended.
as usual... pple got forfeits to drink. and for ONCE!! i did not touch alchohol at all during party!! wahahahahah!!!
thanks to derrick!!! he kinda drank quite a bit for me... until no one notice i hasnt drink yet.. haha! wad a nice partner..
then we proceed on with bdae celebration for ShouZhi and PeiShan.
nice cheesecake we had...
and we had the ice-cream that serene and qianTing have been eyeing on. lolx!!!
of cos... we went back to TV yet again... LOL!
countdown shows and all...
and it was time to countdown.....

went out of hse to play with the fireworks and watch real fireworks too!!!
so after that was time for me to go...
zoe didnt want to leave yet (becos of Ahem Ahem la... but that Ahem Ahem is dumb enuff to ask whether she wants to leave!! tsk tsk tsk... )
so in the end left with derrick and qingyou. BK went down with us to bring us out of his cannot-figure-how-to-go-out a-MAZE-ing HDB (rmb brian went round and round?).
derrick and qY took cab together... initially i wanted to take separate cab too... but BK said.. 222 come liao... want to take chance? see whether can take the last bus...
so i was like hesistating..before running for the bus.

and oh yes... wad else can dumb dumb zen do as usual?
she missed the bus stop.
YES. she missed it.
let alone catching the last bus... she have to walk back to find a cab to fetch.
great. longer distance. higher charges. -.-
but as always... she's a little lucky dodo... she met tis extremely entertaining taxi driver... he made the whole ride a bit more interesting than the usual ones she had. so she dont mind paying a little more on this special day.. the first day of Year 2009.

when she finally reached....
uncle asked her a question...wads ur new yr resolution?
oh well... dodo wants to score well in her studies!!
"oh? how about a new bf? dont want ah?"
dodo wants to concentrate on studies she said........

dumb dumb dodo was really really glad to receive so many greetings this yr... greetings from unusual pple really.
pple like.... gloria? daniel? mingShi? claire? amanda?
this tells me... they have not forgotten me... the dumbdumb... dodo is so happy....

on the sixth day of christmas...

2008-12-31T12:54:00.002+08:00

despite JunAn's constant complaining that i pangseh michelle and him...
leaving them alone together... i decided to go home before heading to PengWee's hse for the X'mas party. haha! (he could have asked chris along though.. abit senile le bah..LOL!)
the first thing i dealt with today was the 3D fingers im suppose to do for Qp's noticeboard.
paint it black paint it black paint it black...!
left it to dry b4 heading out for lunch with lina!
went Canteen 14 to eat Jap!! woo hoo.. finally i tried their food!!!!
so much pple saying abt it that i feel i MUST try it no matter wad.
turns out not too bad actually. too bad tat they only have Udon and all the "Dons"...
Western looks more promising. lolx.
after having lunch was back to hall to complete another layer of the fingers. and tadah! ready to go home!!

mum and sis was painting the rm when i went back...
so wasnt really in a superbly comfortable condition for me to slack.
on my laptop and listen to some songs to chill.
fry some sausages to share with sis...
and went out for the party!!

PengWee's hse is big like dunno wad..
wad? soundproof?? o.o
the party itself was really quite fun... didnt regret for going...
although the whole lot of them is playing nth but Bridge. haha! i dunno how to play la... but after watching so many rounds of it... i guess i know how to le.. Fabien and JunXin makes lousy partners. Michelle is nvr good in guessing who her partner was... JunAn almost vomit blood. as expected.. timothy's bunch is the most "high" de...
eat eat eat.. and was time to xchange gift...
mine was from violet.. and nyit fen's was from me. that look on his face when receiving the gift really makes pple laugh ... like... why tat shy look?! LOL!
game forfeits were really fun... cos im only "watching" it... hahahhaha!
guess this is the only time i had so little alcohol... it only came from the alcoholic choco.. which is pretty nice actually. hehe.

he asked me out again... sorry but i have rejected it yet again.

2 more parties to go!! =))

i still miss SweetHeart...

on the fifth day of christmas...

2008-12-30T11:13:00.003+08:00

woke up.
feeling damn lousy that i have to go back hall for boogle today.
dragged my own sweet time.. had lunch and all...before heading out.
reached hall.
was already 4plus.. we were suppose to meet at 4pm.
but i no care...
cos i got a handful of stuff in my hands.. and i need to put them down first..
so i went up to my rm... put down stuff.

dilly-dally walked down... cos i know pple will be late...
saw no one in canteen..
walked up to rec rm..locked.
well done. is the boogle training called off?
started sms-ing esther and zoe.
apparently, no one is here yet. -.-
got myself a drink while waiting.
BK and Shirley joined.
and i suddenly realised the distance we had between us. oh wells.
then more and more pple joined the table.
i was basically jus enjoying my apple juice... listening to their crappings... wasting my time off.
then esther finally came.
only 2 of us for training? yes.
i jus find it no point to play when there's only 2 of us.. could have jus called it off. damnit.
anywaysssss..... we went on with the usual boring sessions. almost died-ed of boredness today. feel like dying or sth.
my mind was either on results...or cats.

oh yes.. before i went out of hse today.. i suddenly rmb-ed that results will be released today. so i went online to check.
luckily.. my stats didnt fail.
but i definitely did badly for it.
with only a mere GPA of 3.25.. i doubt im gonna be alright if i dont work hard nxt sem.
so... ...
the mood for the whole day was disaster.
i wished i had SweetHeart with me... he would've know how to make me feel better.. and not like some stupid trainings.

so went on to continue with NoticeBoard.
i bet Jun An asked enuff times today ... "U alright or not?"
he kinda shared alot of his personal stuff today.. his selective sight seeing, his family, his roomie etc.. which makes everything more interesting for me i thot. haha.
i must have pissed him for not being able to exert more force on the UHU glue and for my half-dieded brain ...

i slept at 4.30am tonight.
i couldnt sleep.
sth is stucked there.
i need to release it.
im not at all excited abt the x'mas party..
im not at all excited abt tml's OG's party..
well.. at least i have Eming's house warming to look forward to tml...

on the fourth day of christmas...

2008-12-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

yest yest yest...
i was at Suntec Cats Day for the 2nd day!!! =))
and so i had sister SG and YH with me yest.... must have bored them... im so sorry!!
and yet again, i have to give the speech.. oh well.. which nobody (except for YH and SG) listened to actually.. haha.
sales was really really bad... and oh yes.. jus in case SG and YH are concerned.. the sales wasnt exceptionally good after u guys left.. but it got better. LOL!!!!

sometimes i really think that these welfare org are taking a very big risk when holding such adoption drives etc..
...esp if its kittens.. the kids will jus buy on impulse... not having any single idea what sorta commitment and responsibility they have to put in.
many of the cats ended up as strays jus becos their "owners" dont find them CUTE anymoreee.. they got SICK AND TIRED with it.
the other time when i watched "10 promises to my dog" ... i really agreed with one of the promises.
"You got friends and family... but I only got you."
I was really glad that the kids did not have their way when they begged their mum to adopt it for them... "It's not a toy." really.

i saw a very sweet cat today...
i dunno why.. but i feel that we share some affinity?
i was actually looking for hardy...
and i have no idea why i decided to go to the other side of Hall 1 (when usually i dont) to find him.
and there i was... at the other end of the corridor.. saw a cat strolling to the bush.
i quickly catch up and see whether its hardy (although by the back of it.. i know its not.. but im just curious to find out who's that)...
for one second.. the cat was sitting down at the grass patch...
and within split second ( i think i jus blinked my eyes)... it was gone!
imagine the shock i have.. perhaps it went into hiding and trying to play hide-and-seek with me ...haha!

anyway, while i was abt to give up looking for that cat (i was suppose to find hardy rmb?) .. i heard a cat's crying..
i began to search for it.. and found it at this "enclosed" area...
it saw me.. and was really happy to see me.. we dont know each other btw..
and it came over to me..purring away..
but we were separated by a wall abt my height.,.. (not too high i know i know)...
and the cat was trying very hard to get nearer to me so as to get a few more strokes on his head.
so i tried to lift it up by the stomach.. (it even position itself nicely for me to do that..no struggle...moves forward a bit so as the position is right to lift up... how sweet right?)
but u know.. my hands are not very long.. so i couldnt reach him...
i was really desperate to get him out..
until he finally sensed it.. and one jump... he reached me.
he was initially scared of jumping up actually... and couldnt get the hint that i was asking him to jump over the wall..
but it didnt take him long to figure that out. how smart..
so it came over to me.. and it was purring away so happily...
until the tree brunch falls (of all times.... it choose to fall at this time).. -.-
the cat got a scare and ran away...
i tried to catch up with him but couldnt find him anymore.
argh.
and i've decided to continue looking for it... should be near the vicinity.. oh yes.. i've named it SweetHeart. =P

oh yah.. after that.. i found hardy..
he wasnt difficult to find at all... always hanging ard that area..
but he dont look happy today..a bit moody..
so we couldnt bring him to Suntec today.. he jus spread his leg wide open when we try to put him in the cage. oh wells... he must have know that we are going to bring him to a far away place... trying to find him a new owner.
he have all his friends here... and this is the only place that he has finally decided to settled down. used to be highly adventurous and joined in any Orientations he came by. frequently "moving house" ..finding the right place to be in...

on the third day of christmas...

2008-12-27T23:32:00.003+08:00

well well well...
i went to Suntec Cats Day today!!!
woo hoo~!
let me start off with me going back hall...
i feel gd abt myself today alright. haha!
and oh yes.. i saw that crappy JunYuan.
i was really at a distance ... and didnt notice him until he like keep staring and staring.
i was like... must be someone i know. haha..
and so... there he is...
he jus told me how No-Life he is. LOL. i agreed totally! haha!!!
wanted to kope his teh-peng actually.. but haiya.. too ke lian le. hahahaha!

so nua abit in hall.
went to Marcella's house to meet Ivy and Farmi.
took Farmi's car to Suntec.
was literally draggin 2 plastic boxes to find the lift.
and so we began our day!!!

sell sell sell...
and b4 i know it.. i was time for me to go for my speech.
imagine the panic i had when they said "Cats Welfare Talk" when im suppose to intro CMN. omg-osh.
but heck. went up.. talk talk talk.. some started snapping photos..which i go errr...
anyway.. so there i am! 6-7mins talk (supposedly 30mins mind u!) i mean... come on.. who can speak for 30mins non-stop on INTRODUCTION to CMN??! even the emcee got a shock and told me like "scare me u know!" hahahaha! oh yes.. the emcee is a nice chap too. help CMN to promote alot.
2nd speech was much more informal.. and i was basically like ... argh. nth to be scared of already. the mic volume was really pretty soft.. so i was trying very hard to talk loud...
so far.. havent seen any superbly interesting customer.. but we got a "customer" whom the emcee kinda detest. "Why he jus keep snapping photos and dont buy anything?!" lolx!!

so tats it! my first Cats Day at Suntec!
oh ya... Thanks Benson for supporting me!!! ^^V

on the second day of christmas...

2008-12-26T22:42:00.003+08:00

i gave out a lot a lot of THANKS today...
and received a lot a lot of THANKS too.
i guess im jus fortunate.
to have those guys with me.
like i said to YH.. U guys are the greatest!!!! ^^V
and i realised.. its all guys. -.-
where's all the "helpful" girls goes to?? heck.

and so..
i continued to work on my speech draft today.
and got a shock when Ivy emailed me the actual venue of tml's event.
its at... HAPPY KIDZ ATRIUM.
am i suppose to see kids running ard or sth?
my speech is god damn formal.
DOESN'T SUIT LA! i jus go like omg omg omg...
im gonna be the biggest fool/clown/entertainer/outcast tml.
and i probably will feel like kicking them or sth. omg.
now i better pray hard that everything's well tml. argh.

oh yes...
did i say that I LOVE JUSTIN?
he replied my email (which i have waited for really really very long from KerFarng)..
he gave me a call to confirm my printings (which KerFarng nvr did)..
and said that he will deliver it to my hall on 29Dec!! Woo Hoo~~!!!
now that everything's moving on... im proud to say that 2 more items from PnP's To-Do-List gonna be striked off soon!!!! YES!!!

wad else did i do today?
oh.. was searching for pple to swop feeding dates with Lina and I.
had some miscommunication with MingShi along the way.. and both of us jus go... "oh.....sorry sorry sorry" ... hahahaha
finally had CaiHong to swop with us. yessssss~~!!!!!
now.. christmas party will still be on!! ^^ shit. the present.

Boss JunAn called (after i complained that he wants to waste my money for calling him) to talk abt more PnP stuff.
Initially wanted to meet me online at night.. but i said NOT TOO LATE.
and do think i thought that he got a long list of stuff to tell me..
in the end... nth much mahhhhhh. maybe he's paying the bills thats why. lolx!!!
oh... and he said he feel like hitting me with a folder for the 3rd time.
sry boss.. maybe u are jus not like the ordinary respectable SENIORS. hahahahahaha! =X oopx.
omg.. he got a long life... he jus came online when i typed that. Bu Kui Shi BOSS.

On the first day of christmas...

2008-12-25T17:19:00.002+08:00

backed from caroling at Holiday Inn (finally the last stop!)
was pretty glad today's caroling was a stress-less singing with great seniors like carolyn and jia li. and do think jun xin tried to keep it a secret that jia li is his sister! -.-
anywayz.. everything was smooth today.
all the buses and mrts i took arrived jus on time..
"u always get bullied one isit?" one of the seniors asked me when tiancai "JOKE" with me. argh. i dont want to have that Fabian Look. hahahahahaha!

skipped JP's show today as i got to rush back for my speech draft.
yes.. im gonna give a speech. lol.
for cats management.. at suntec on 27 and 28Dec. JX said it was really impressive. haha. definitely a rare opportunity.
finally a chance for me to contribute as a maincomm member of CMN.
oh ya.. for anyone who's free.. do come down to suntec on 27 and 28dec from 12pm-6pm to purchase some merchandise from us!!! its for our furry friendS! ^-^V

and i jus got a shock from Danny.
"i will let her know that you are the new Larry's Belly coordinator"
i go like WHAT?!
for anyone who dont know.. Danny is our Cats Cafe coordinator and he will no longer be ard from 27Dec onwards..
he was looking for a ji cheng ren the other day...
and somehow or somewhat.. i was asked if i wanna be...
and somehow or somewhat.. i am one now. o.o"
its really not an easy task i think... i only got to know larry, scourgie, hardy and a few other cats in Hall 5 better. the others .. hardly. damnnn...
let's jus hope that he intro the cats to me well... stress stress stress.

lets see.. wad else am i left with...
boogle training. shit. i forgot abt the sheet of boogle wordlist i have to MEMORISE. damn.
more poster designs.
3D fingers. or.. violet's fingers.
liarse with supplier - Justin. KerFarng went on holiday!!! shit. cannot bug him le. Justin!!! Reply my email!!!!!!!!!! or else.. Boss JunAn is going to kill me!!!! >.<
looking for someone to sub with lina and i for 30Dec. if not, i guess i will go back alone to feed my kitties...

hrm... i sense nxt sem is a killer for me. if only.................

great.

2008-12-23T02:19:00.003+08:00

jus returned to my room and yes.. it has been a great night i must say.
its all becos of chris, timothy and violet.. their conversations are god-like. hahahaha!
caroling at IMM is fun!!! am so glad mavis was the conductor.. michelle was with us.. great! and oh yes.. qy said i've improved too! haha! =P

had nice dinner and companions...
had fun with cubes... since afternoon? lol.
had fun at Daiso... banana case? hah!
had interesting talks during bus and mrt rides.. security board? LOL!
had a great art and craft EXPERIMENT with QPeeps.

non-stop crappings and laughter... hahahaha...
yes chris.. we shld do this more often. =P

now.. which finger is which? o.o

hrmm...

2008-12-22T15:56:00.002+08:00

oh well... i think im not ready for this..
sorry for the sudden change of mind.
sorry for making ur mind go blank.. i really doubt i can fill it up.
seriously... i really hope u ARE joking with me...

now.. can i put in point form?

2008-12-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes.. im meeting my hot dates on every weekend.
are guys more picky than girls when it comes to food?
i didnt know a critical person like her will praise...
rey.. u gonna be fine!
3jan is stucked.
i bought books to read? wow.
i lost count of how many appointments i was suppose to get back to.
by chance? too much of a coincidence.
cute.
what r we suppose to do?
everything's down. left boggle. great.
caroling caroling caroling...

everything's gonna be fine?

2008-12-16T23:47:00.004+08:00

Now... This is Your Copy! Haha!

2008-12-09T16:53:00.008+08:00

Grab Your Copy Now!

2008-12-03T11:11:00.002+08:00

IRRITATING...

2008-10-23T18:34:00.002+08:00

This is really irritating..
Can u...u....u... and YOU.. stop taking me for granted?!
Do i look like those extremely helpful person who got the whole world's time to entertain U?!
Shit Shit Shit...

ahhh.. i know i know....

2008-10-13T02:03:00.006+08:00

okayyy.. i think i need to update this superbly boring-dead-senseless-shitty blog.
so many things to say.. but dunno where to start. >.< okok... flash back!

jus finished my OB presentation preparation.. 5mins of talking.. damnit. im suppose to be allocated with 3mins nia.. died-ed. x.x
came back from OG bdae celebration for QT and Zoe.. drank a little.. alcohol.. but still alright. cos the "burning" feel is not as strong as the one i had from Paige. skipped OG supper (i plan not to eat anyway) for presentation preparation. damn....
had dinner with sisters at tamp. pepper lunch! my love! =D and so we bought a lot of stuff to bring back to my hall .. so pampered. bought spoon, bowl, more paper plates, forks and cups all for my meow meows! haha! im obsessed le la. bought more tidbits and instant noodles! its a MUST okay. and yesssss!! my sister bought me a pair of sports shoes!! love it! =D u dunno how shopping-deprived i am now.. eeks. so if anyone is kind enuff.. buy more clothes for me can? lolx!
stucked with stats tut for hours... dreaded it.
had wonderful wonderful lunch with sisters! oooo wooo!!!

thats all i had for today's activities... lets see for tml....

presentation self-rehearsal in hall. damnnnn... i hate presentation.
presentation group-rehearsal in sch. damnnnn.. i still hate presentation.
OB seminar.. thats where my hated presentation comes in.
dinner with PnP peeps at 7.15pm. Jun An.. i am not going to be late ok! prepare to drink warm water from the bathroom's tap!
Meeting with PnP peeps at 8pm.. discussion for notice board design. si liao. where's my design? oopx.
QP meeting in JCRC rm.
Econs tut... eeks.

that shall be all for tomorrow's activities... and TUESDAY will come!! woo hoo~~!!!!!

oh yes.. for the many pple who asked abt my bdae celebration(s)..i know its too late.. but still .. i wanna thank them la!

OG bdae celebration - this was truly superbly surprising. jus imagine.. shirley jus dragged me from my table(i jus ordered my dinner ok!) and go to the stone table and the OG started singing Happy Bdae to u.. we ran there alright? i was jus.. too shock to react.
- Thank you Shirley, QT and Zoe for the cushion!!!! Love it!
- Thank you the rest of OG who were there!
- Thank you Kum Sum, Chen Lin, Zoe, Desmond and Shirley who wished me again later on.

MP24 bdae celebration - this was one of the most contradicting bdae celebration i had i think. why? cos apparently.. i was feeling rather stressed out during that period.. by studies.. by the increasing workload etc... and these guys.. specially made a trip down to my hall to celebrate bdae for me.. was really so glad to have them.
- Thank you Lina, Louis, Rey and Yi Hui!
- Thank you Louis for the Poo-Poo book. I really love it.. but damn... i got no time to read it. =(

QP bdae celebration - the most siao de. i cant imagine i actually got ALL the forfeits they had that night. blowing candles is NOT easy.. when they place u metres away.. and make u do forfeit if u dont blow out all of it. got poured with tons of water.. made to do pole-dance (which really fu yan them la)... got carried... write "I LOVE QUINTSICAL PRODUCTIONS" with butt...tongue-to-tongue .. mambo... arghh. so lucky HUH!
- Thank you QP for the celebration!
- Thank you Lina for the lolli! I still havent finish it.
- Thank you Fidelia and Woon Howl for wishing me again after that!

Class bdae celebration - this was pretty simple. they arranged for bdae celebration lunch. had lunch and tats it. lolx! but oh well.. its the thought that counts.. though ultimately doesnt turn out THAT well when stats proj invaded. am still glad Pei Pei sang numerous times of Happy Bdae songs for me though!! =D

Family bdae celebration - family bdae celebration is always the simplest and yet the most heartwarming de. had buffet at sakura.. had beckham with me right now... had a nice piglet dustbin .. an oh-my-mama-so-nice sketch book (i love to draw for leisure btw).. 2 pens (for drawing for cos)..some $$ from sis... a watch later on..woo hoo~! all that i wanted so much. lolx!

Special thanks to others who wish me Happy Birthday!
- Eileen Tan
- Eileen Chong
- Sister Soo Guan
- PP, Pei Pei!
- Cherie
- Jonna
- Zi Xuan
- Teng Feng
- Kezia
- Sudar

ooooo...

2008-10-04T17:23:00.001+08:00

I'm totally amazed with my life right now...

How TRUE.... o.o

2008-10-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

You simply won't be able to do it all today -- so take it easy on yourself, and don't set goals that are impossible to achieve! You don't need to let yourself out of your responsibilities, but you do need to take yourself out of the running for 'perfect person on the year' -- the title is not worth the stress it requires. If you want to keep harmony in your life, you need to adjust the expectations you have for yourself. Requiring a little bit less enables you to succeed a little bit more.

S.H.I.T

2008-09-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

Just when i thought everything is going to be fine... things have to come knocking my door and flood me.. leaving me breathless and lost once again.
i swear this has never ever happen to me..

too high an expectation?
too much of a perfectionist?
well..i dont think so.
maybe im just a pure idiot who doesnt knows how to manage my time well.

back to the panadols days.
popping..1...2...and 3...

erm..

2008-09-13T17:17:00.003+08:00

seriously.. i hate this.
for those who really ARE concerned.. i really am quite lost now.
so if u asked me what happened to me.. i really have no answer for u dudes.
so u guys can keep guessing.. until u really know me.. and until i really know wad i wanna say.. i think i will still be screwed inside out.

thanks william. u are the first to made me smile for once today.

oh well...

2008-09-13T01:07:00.002+08:00

i dont think im coping well..
i think im suffocating as time goes by..

old ways doesnt work for me anymore.
new ways doesnt seems to work either.
how? how should i go thru this?

maybe i jus need a little more time..
maybe i jus need to stop forcing things on myself..
maybe...maybe.. i dunno.

life hasnt been great so far..
it totally TOOT.
i dunno how am i going to survive this...

hopes ... i bear no hope now. or rather...... i dont want to.

zen is not happy. definitely. and pls dont ask her why.....

weird

2008-08-20T10:46:00.003+08:00

hrm... a pretty long while since i last blogged. and to my utmost surprise... i discovered i got a draft in here.. and the title was "am i always so indecisive?"
i left it there for like dunno how long.
and when i open it.. wanting to know wad crap i've written previously so anxiously..
i realised... ...
there's NOTHING there! oh my god. o.o" dumbo!

alrighty.. some updates on what i've been on lately.

i went for ALS Main Comm Interview and got rejected. totally dejected cos i wasnt selected. damnnn... but i lost my vice pres position to another candidate who was really quite nice.. so alright la! im sure ALS will be in good handS! =D got over it liaox... hehe.

and wad else.. let's see.. oh.. i went for QP Interview the other day too..
did not get rejected. totally elated cos i was selected.
got into my first choice - Publication & Publicity. Weeeee!!! Something new that i've always wanted to try out. great!!!! ^^V

alrighty.. and soon after that.. i received Derek's email that my application got thru for Biz Solutions!!! (despite being late of cos.. haha!)
One step closer to Biz Solutions..
but i count count count.. i think there's at least another 50 of them who got shortlisted too.. so oh well... too early to say anything at this pt of time.
i need to go thru their so called Interview first.. yes.. ANOTHER interview. damnnn... but i guess their interview isnt very much like any other interview.. its more like the Biz Case Training Session we had b4 bahhhh... grrrr...

sch is still as stressful as ever...
and i realised.... i hasnt meet up with MP24 lately..
although Mr.Toh warned me a whole lot of evil stuff that he/they will do to me.. but still..
or maybe i shld take his advice. lolx!

oh ya..
i rmb lina told me this was blog-able.
one fine day.. lina and i decided to tried the food in Hall 2.
so we had very nice western food there.. and it was air-condition... everything was good except that there's loads of flies there....
and so i was 'lucky' enuff that a housefly stopped at my hand.
so i was trying to shake it off.. but couldnt. it seems 'stucked' there u know?
so i took a closer look... who knows.. it died in my hand or sth...
and i realised...
there's another housefly on top of it. -.-
DAMNNNNN..... MUST U DO IT ON MY HAND?!
..............

damn...

2008-08-16T18:13:00.004+08:00

u know.. i actually got a blog skin that is like 90% done and yet im not changing it. -.-
due to my laziness.. or rather.. due to how much i wanna enjoy at least 1 weekend.. i refuse to do it.
afterall, i wont be active on blogging ... so i find it no pt too. haha... okok..kill me for that.
alrighty.. i know its quite impossible for me to blog abt EVERYTHING thats happening in my life right now.. so i guess i'd probably do a summary of it.

uni life isnt fun at all... i mean the studying part.. like seriously.
i bet this is the first time i dread going for tut so much..
this is the first time i find lectures are totally useless...
senior said.. "textbook may be ur better teacher".. THAT i agree!

the fun part is probably the CCA and hall bah...
finally i've decided to do sth i really really love for CCA..
joined Cats Management Club and Animals Lovers Society.. yes yes yes.. for those who know me.. these! are the clubs for me...!
am thinking of joining Biz Solutions... sth that will definitely benefit me for sure. jus hopefully i will get selected la!
went for the JCRC interview too... this one is sth random.. i jus go there for fun.. try for fun.. and ultimately .. i think the interview became more like a chit chat session with Mr.Brian. haha!
lets jus hope that everything goes well from now on.. cos i really feel like im abit screwed up..jus that im ignoring it. damnnnn..... im so dead. x.x

tml gonna be farewell dinner for Mr.Fresh.
mon gonna be DaiDi inter-wing competition.. i wouldnt call it a competition..cos im like going there for fun nia.. haha!
mon there's marketing meeting in my rm too. great! my grp mates are coming over.. tat means i dont need to wake up THAT early.. right?
more OB seminars on mon too.. damn. i really hate OB i tell u.
the rest of my programs, imma leave it up for u to ask.

oh yes.. how can i forget the days of having sore throat and cough??
not totally recover from it yet.. but getting better le.
thanks tf for that strepsils!
thanks lina for refraining me from eating this and that!
thanks william for giving like a million suggestions on how to cope with not jus the sore throat but uni life too!!
thanks david for ur suggestions too! it was actually quite a surprise tat u pop by with the msg..
thanks all for those who concerned! no thanks for those who dont bothered, of cos!

oh ya oh ya.. many thanks to BK, buddy derrick, qing you and chiang wee for the overnight volleyball coaching!!! now that i've learnt basics, im enjoying this sports too!! =P
anyone wanna play volleyball?? im bad at it.. so easy to jus trash me or sth. x.x

alrighty... gonna get more slp...
now.... make a guess when will i blog again? haha!

now what?

2008-08-06T10:41:00.002+08:00

how long have i not been blogging? no idea.
a million and one things to blog about.. but no time to. =(
just when i thought week 1 of school should be superbly relaxing, it turns out otherwise. =(
feeling the stress right now.
am so uncertain abt a million things. damnnnnn...

hall life isnt healthy.
u sleep at holy hours.. u eat supper.. the supper portion can be easily overwrite by the hills and slopes in NTU. u climb up and down, up and down, up , up, and down again. and wad else could be worse when u are bad at directions? someone like zen (who is so dumb) suffers the most i guess.

oh yes. i really really really hate that smell at night.
if u think chocolates smells good.. THINK AGAIN.
pple who stays around this area definitely dont think so.
where the hell is that chocolate factory? im so gonna bomb it down. argh.

very very very ...random.

sorry..

2008-07-28T15:50:00.001+08:00

im on my way to the panadols world.
jus popped one today.
and i really think i will pop the second one tonight.
now, do i need to report to mr.L? hahaha!

:)

2008-07-28T08:26:00.003+08:00

zen is now happy, despite feeling damn sick.
WHY? Cos....

She is leaving FX tomorrow..which means she can go camp on wednesday!!! (Marcus still sounded quite loh soh over the sms... it was a lengthy 2 smses, when he could jolly well say 'OK, call me when u reached' Hahahahahah!!
She managed to get dear evil louis really really pissed. Hahahahahah! (Louix: I'm going to bring that rifle out to shoot you!)
She managed to trick yi hui and made him really really innocent (for once!) hahahahahah! will you be bringing out that rifle too? =X
Of cos, other than being evil and enjoying being one, i'm really really glad to have those 2 friends (who got tricked by the same thing). Thanks!
She got a mum who constantly worry about her when she said she's sick and feeling lousy. Cos she knows i'm always that 'i sick oso wont tell you, unless it really hurts' kinda child.
She managed to get a new watch and a shirt.
She got very very nice meet ups with her friends: recruit toh, recruit ng, lina, faz, eileen, jonna, yuli (met by surprise). weeeee!!!
She managed to give a very meaningful definition to the word "KuKu". Don't ask me why.
She's going to get another day of pay doing practically NOTHING.
I think she managed to piss her manager with her non-stop bugging too. oh no.. she's really getting out of hand.

A million and one thing that can make evil zen happy! hahahahahah!

To: Professor Evil Chew Hong An Louis

2008-07-27T13:10:00.004+08:00

Dear Recruit Chew,

As promised, here's my post specially for you. First and foremost, let me thank you for being such an evil-and-yet-not-so-evil boy. Thank you for your calls and smses. Thank you for all your efforts in explaining to me why you can't make it yesterday. Thank you for asking if I'm going to be home soon.

Sorry for lying to you since 1.25pm yesterday, that makes up about 24hrs of keeping you in suspense. Sorry for not being able to concentrate fully on what you are saying over the phone as I was with my friends. Sorry for pissing you, I know you are when you said 'bye bye' over the phone. Sorry for doing all these, despite you being sick.

For this, I shall reveal the truth. I did not withdraw from NTU. I did not receive any scholarship. I am not going UK. I think I'm getting too evil.

P.S. See a NORMAL doctor and not that M.O. please.

Thanks.
Your evil friend,
Zenith Ang

To: Recruit Toh

2008-07-25T14:34:00.002+08:00

Dear Recruit Toh Yi Hui,

Thank you for being such a good and 'innocent' friend. On celebrating your first book out, I have decided to forgo my so-called scholarship and stay in Nanyang Technological University to continue my studies. This implies that; we will not have to resort to MSN to chat, we can meet for at least a few hours on weekends and I will be meeting you tomorrow. Please be reminded that 'Entertainment' always works better when its both ways.

P.S. I was not striked by lightning today.

Thanks.
Your wonderful friend,
Zenith Ang

dated 22jul2008

2008-07-24T08:41:00.004+08:00

There's so much stuff that are yet to be done... damnn...im feeling the stress now.

Look what i've done to myself..
I basically rotted on weekdays (work OR no work means nth to me...except that i get paid OR not paid la)
I spent my weekends idling away (not doing anything concrete...i jus do what i feel like doing and nth else. isnt that what weekends are for?)

And now...i landed myself in this...
Lots of shopping not done... (sch's starting in a 2 weeks time? argh. dont remind me.)
Lots of recipe not tried... (i hate this. i search high and low for recipes..and yet i have not tried them out.. damn.)
Lots of catch up to do... (there's a dozen pple i wanna meet NOW.. cos i got a very bad feeling that once sch starts.. my life will become pretty much occupied. i dunno why. how i wish we could ALL meet up in just ONE day..but then again, one day for u guys is never enuff for me.
Lots of fun i miss.. (i wanna go bowling again...i wanna go for the night luge rides...i wanna go to night safari(why is it always zoo?!)...)
And argh.... till now.. my dear SPCA has not called me for any sorta volunteer jobs... and i wonder if my post ever reached them? sad... i wanted to help in there so much. T-T
nvm..there's a million ways i can do to help..hiak hiak hiak...

so yah! what the hell have i been doing all these while? i wonder too..
after thinking much of about my damn holiday (which hasnt been fruitful at all i think), i shall continue with the more interesting stuff.

::SMU Survey (continuation from the previous post)::

SMU Guy: Hi, this is calling from SMU, may I have a few minutes for you to help us with a survey?
Me: -Look Around- (since no one is around) OK!
(btw..i was really pissed that day)
SMU Guy: Ok. We know that you have chosen NTU as your choice, may i know what makes you choose NTU and not SMU?
Me: Huh? Why ah? ...... ....... Hrm......
SMU Guy: Hahahahaha... yah... why? Like is it becos of the program they offer or ?
Me: Oh... cos basically its a 3 yrs program (i felt stupid when i said this alright! why?)
SMU Guy: ? oh... u do know that SMU program is also 3 years right?
Me: -Damnit- Oh yes.... yah...
SMU Guy: Was it the sch fees that matters?
Me: Oh ya! (dumbass zen... as much as she was trying to hide her pissed mood, she sounded really dumb) The sch fees differ pretty much, so yah.
SMU Guy: I see... btw.. may i know if you are staying nearer to SMU or NTU?
Me: SMU. Haha.
SMU Guy: So the travelling time doesnt matter to you?
Me: Oh...I got a dorm in NTU... so yah...even nearer! (sound so proud that she got a dorm there u know? ok. more dumb.)
SMU Guy: Oh... so u got a place at their dormitory already...
Me: Yeah...
SMU Guy: But then again, doesnt the cost of staying in the halls adds up to the difference in sch fees?
Me: (u are a smart ass) no ah... (trying to sound like i really DID bother to calculate the difference) there's still some SIGNIFICANT difference.
SMU Guy: -wonder- Ohhhhh... i see.. (not really convinced)
Me: Actually... initially, i prefer SMU.
SMU Guy: (Finally!!! She's telling me the truth!) Oh? Then what makes u change your mind?
Me: It was after i went for a scholarship interview..and that leaves me quite a bad impression.
SMU Guy: Oh (like he know what im gonna say next).. the one u attended..was it the LKC one
Me: Yah.
SMU Guy: yah.. dont worry. that was the general response. hahahahaha.
Me: o.o" (so there's a million pple who actually thinks the same way as me.) Yah.....tats why.
SMU Guy: yah...we are truly sorry abt it. dont worry, we'll take that into account.
Me: its ok. (who the hell cares what happen next unless u tell me that u are going to sponsor my uni fees!)
SMU Guy: alright. so can i ask if you have a gd impression for SMU?
Me: (damn..u forced me to say) not really! cos the interview really leave a VERY bad impression on me. not so much on the school..but the students themselves.
SMU Guy: (he's superbly curious i tell u) oh? can u like tell me more abt it on what happen during the interview?
Me: [summarise what happen that day]
SMU Guy: oh... i see... dont worry. i will reflect that to the management. thank you so much for your time!

yeah....tat concludes my survey..
i was quite reluctant to answer at first..but yet it turn out to brighten my mood by a lot after that.
THANKS to the SMU guy for calling at the right time.
as for the lady who called after tat...im sorry...but i dont wish to repeat myself further.

aiyo..

2008-07-14T08:52:00.003+08:00

i have no idea..
but somehow i prefer to blog early in the morning.
and that explains why im blogging now.

while browsing thru the mails.. i suddenly rmb i missed out someone in my office.
Mr.L.
this guy i have nth much to say except:
- he's a flirt. (why? ha.. for u to guess what he did to make me think that)
- he got a very very nice voice and tone of speaking.

thats all.
Mr.N is finally back.
and im still wondering how come his tidbits and stuff from taiwan reached office before he does.
haha!!!

ok. Yi hui... i seriously missed u guys... BUT... (this part i didnt tell u)... im very sure i will miss these days of peace and free-from-torturing even more!!!!! hiak hiak hiak hiak!!!!!

yes yes yes.. I WAS suppose to be in camp now.. but but but..that damn (calm down zen) morons (no..u are not calm enuff yet!) idiotic (fine. go on..)... they they they... actually rejected me!!! wth. but i got over it already.. since i got my hall FOC to look forward to. :D

eva!!! lets meet up before my sch starts!!
of cos.. not forgetting jonna, inez, eileen (although i know i will meet u up in sch), sudar and a few others!!!
i miss u guys.... :(

bye bye to the 3 EVILS!

2008-07-10T08:40:00.002+08:00

BYE BYE to Evil Rey and Louis!!!!

Please promise not to distroy any parts of the island.
Of cos.... my offer of doing up the wig design for u guys are still on. :D
Send me ur botak photos!!! wahahahhaa!!!

BYE BYE!!!!

2008-07-09T08:18:00.004+08:00

BYE BYE TOH YI HUI!!!!

Thanks for being sucha good crapper all this while. U REALLY CRAP A LOT.

Pls rmb to submit ur botak photo to me so that u will not have to worry what sorta hairstyle to get when u are out. :D

for ur info...

2008-07-08T09:04:00.003+08:00

alrighty.
i've got some contradictions here that im really puzzled with.
here it goes..
i'm so free at work..BUT im so packed when im at home.
i get paid when im at work..BUT i dont get paid when im at home.
i blog when im at work..BUT i dont blog when im at home.
hrm...

since i've gt nth better to do..i shall let u know abt my colleagues.
yes yes.. not a safe thing to do at this moment but still.. im doing it.
so ima gotta switch windows here and there when someone walks past...

lets start with tat guy in front of me.. MR.K.
before he reached his desk..i already know he's coming.
why?cos he blast his music like nobody's business. haha.
dont suit his image as a nice and sweet guy. lol.

next... my "every morning MIA" neighbour beside me..Mr.C.
im so glad he's not having his hum chee peng at his desk today.
u know how suffocating it can be when u eat hum chee peng in the office?
so next time if u are thinking of killing me..bring me to an air conditioner rm.. eat hum chee peng beside me. hahaha...!
okay. i still think he looks too innocent. >.<

next.. the one whom i've never failed to bug for updates. MR.N.
im sure gonna miss the days when he reply my emails superbly fast with his updates while he's at TW. hahaha!
a very very hardworking guy i must say.

up till this point.. i still think that im doing a risky thing..
blogging abt collegues when they might jus walk pass anytime..and look at what im typing.
okay. so people.. rmb.. this is what u get when u got too bored.. cant blame me.. cos i have been bored for like 1 week already?????? damnnn....

alrighty.
moving on.MR.S. the very very bold guy..the one and only one who dares to wear jeans and polo tees to work from Mon-Thurs (when manager is not around!) and i wonder if he's bolder or am i more bold. but one thing for sure... we are both waiting to be sacked. LOL!

let me go down the row..
we have Mr.H (he got loads of food on his desk!!!)
Mr.E (whom i have not yet have the chance to talk to till now..pple say he's the most handsome..i say he looks DAO)
Mr.G (very good at bowling..very funny)
Mr.W (a very nice guy too!!!).

next row..Ms.N(very sociable lady)
Mr.C(ciko..i always call him cikgu..not in front of him of cos! he's a big guy who looks really cute. wahahahah!)
Mr.S(good at bowling too!)?
Mr.B..too thin.
and we are back to Mr.K! :D

all guys...only we 2 girls. x.x
but i must say they are all very nice guys... =)
the other bunch of colleagues..will blog abt it next time.
come to think of it.... i shld blog abt MP24 pple. they're quite cute to blog u know...entertainment?

KO

2008-07-08T08:35:00.004+08:00

okay... since i couldnt blog at night (cos i cannot tahan anymore)... i shall blog in the morning. as usual. YES.

alrighty. lets see what im gonna blog today.
whole load of stuff to blog but dunno where to start always happen on zen. damnit.
yest met up with the 3 evil boys (soon-to-be man HOPEFULLY), see teng, laoda, xue qi, lina and shu ling. was quite surprise with the turnout really. lolx!!!!
i only rmb eating spaghatti with chicken chop (which i didnt order thanks to YH, the not-so-professional waiter).
and then i rmb i was called.. 白癡呆 (yes.. after so many reminders from u guys.. how can i forgot)
i rmb being thirsty.
i rmb we were lured into a 巷 for dinner.
i rmb we were lead to McCafe, only ended up puzzled with the question "why McCafe?".
and i rmb... i wanted to kill those 3 boys badly.. only to find that they are killing me instead. x.x
and yes.. i rmb... i got a bad fever after i got home. luckily... rey couldnt find the wine menu. lol.
anyway, THANKS lina for organising this!! :D

for more info, please refer to Lina's blog at http://leucomelanous.blogspot.com/

for photos, please refer to Lina's blog still at http://leucomelanous.blogspot.com/ Please kindly wait for her to link to seeteng's blog and proceed from there.

Hancock

2008-07-07T09:09:00.000+08:00

Ok ok.. i know i know.. im not elaborating on the points i've mentioned.
im adding more topics instead.
but still.... im gonna tell u abt this movie, since i watched it.

last thursday was yet another free movie for me. :D
so went together with my 2 sisters, serene , boram and her friend.
oh ya.. the tickets comes with free hot dog combo. great. we really need it by the time we reached vivo.

yes.. food and people aside. movie itself was good.
not superbly fanstastic that you MUST watch like Wanted. but wont get u disappointed in anyway either.
yet another movie that got a nice little twist somewhere. i like.
however, i do feel that sth is lacking in the movie...

perhaps it lacks abit of intro of how these people get their super extraordinary power ( i want to fly too!) ...
perhaps it lacks abit of punch in the movie..
perhaps it lacks abit of .. hrm... something la.

but still... there were parts where i felt was quite touching..
can only say that will smith is good... that look in his eyes..wow.
and i bet that 'uniform' suits him pretty much.
ah! maybe..maybe they should show more stunts and not always grabbing a car and throw it. perhaps thats where its lacking.

with great power comes great responsibility!!! :D
i want to watch Red Cliff... Mummy too... :(
anyone wanna sponsor me? im pampered. x.x

Tee Cube

2008-07-06T14:37:00.008+08:00

okay.. i admit that i really forgot abt this..
promised gin shi to do him this favor.. and i dun wanna be someone who always break their promises.
so, here it goes!

IF you think that u are good at designing..
IF you think that ur designs need more recognition..
IF you think that you want to buy a very NICE tshirt ..
IF you think that you want to see how good local designers are..

CLICK BELOW LINK..

http://www.teecube.com/

rey..u can take a look at that website.. eva's design on it! =)

Brrr...

2008-07-04T09:18:00.000+08:00

damn... im feeling so cold now.... grrrrrrrrrr.......

My Calendar

2008-07-03T08:36:00.005+08:00

Upcoming events:

I guess there should be quite a few stuff going on over the next few weeks.
lets see..tonight would be hancock movie as mentioned in earlier post.
friday would be bdae celebration for boram and shahiq. korean food..again.
coming sat would be TF's bdae celebration.sorry that this isnt gonna be any surprise bdae celebration since u actually HINTED me. so... no surprise. :p

okay..let me take a look at my calendar...

8th aiai will be back in office, time to bug her for work again.
9th will be yi hui's enlistment... bye bye! i promise i wont wake u up early in the morning anymore!!! =X
10th will be louis's and rey's enlistment.. u two can continue to have fun inside together. ok..sounds wrong.
and there u go.. all my grp members go in liao..damnit.
and then and then... i've took 1 wk leave to celebrate this.
wahahahaha!! jk jk.. i took 1 wk leave (no income) to go for my FOC. still have to pay freaking 50bucks for it..but im sure its gonna be awesome fun! :D

let's see...after one week of fun(still not yet confirmed)..im gonna go back to work again!!!!
21st.. have to check my dorm application...im so excited abt it...damnit..... ahhhh...pls do not give me a hall that is far away from biz sch..im going to keel if thats the case.
25th.. nth significant but its JL's enlistment. since he told me...so yeah. can only say "ALL THE BEST MAN"...
28th..send matriculation.
29th..last day in fuji xerox.... awww.... other than the days i rotted at work.. i think im gonna miss it. :(
30th... Freshmen welcome day. to remind me im starting sch soon...be prepared for a whole load of mugging and new CCA... oh my mama... the thought of it makes me..brrrrr...grrrr..... oooo...weeeee...... woooooooo... ahhhh..wow.
its justin's bdae too.. :)
4 august..school officially starts. damnit...... wonder how will it be like... oh my mama mama....

see! i've got my activities all planned.
calendar all marked. good! :D
and i rmb... i rmb... i need to mark more things on it..
cos i apparently forgot that i promised gin shi sth...sorry!!!!
i apparently forgot that somewhere on the calendar...sis is going vietnam. cool...
i definitely have forgotten more things...
so people...remind me (whichever impt date)!!! so that i can mark it on my calendar!!! :D

i lub u all!!! ^-^

POINT 8

2008-07-02T08:38:00.002+08:00

point 8... the medical check up.
so lina..here it goes.. (early in the morning)
not too sure if you have gone for it yet.. perhaps tats why u are curious what happened that day. lolx!

anyway,
i took half day leave that day to go for that damn medical check up.
i have no idea why but i alighted way earlier than i shld be..
so i began to walk..
anyone who has been to NTU should know the road is NEVER easy to walk..
uphill...downhill...up again..then down again... damnit.
and jus imagine im on heels that day.. yes yes yes....
i walked and rmb that i've got a map with me..
cos it seems like its a never ending road... so i better see how near/far im away from my destination..
and could u imagine the fear i've got when i found out that i was actually at least 5 bus stops away????
i've decided to give up and stop at one of the bus stops to wait for another bus. yes.. GG.

and so this dumbo zenith has finally reached its destination.
and phew! she's glad she waited for the bus (although it really took freaking long for one to come..its holiday u see!)
she walked to business sch... (looking at how others are walking the other direction..she kindly ignored.. dumbo zen...why? continue reading)
she did not walk the wrong way to biz sch.. cos she was there before...
so she gladly took the lift and went up..
only to realised... she got to make a choice..left or right??
without referring to the map ... this dumb ass head to the right side.
walk thru countless staff office... and reached the end of the building.
"hmmm... wrong way?" YAH! NOW THEN REALISED!!!
so this dumbo suddenly rmb she got MAP!
she took out again.. and see where the hell was the medical checkup rm.
to the LEFT. yes..LEFT!
so she walked all the way to the left again... and ta dah!!!
she didnt see the rm anywhere.. -.-
but this time round... she became cleverer... she reads the map...
she ALMOST walk the wrong way AGAIN!

safe and sound..reached the place.
do the registration..met a biz girl..who seems very much like claire...
and we became the partners for the day.
my medical check up partner maybe.. haha. paid for the checkup..yes..u need to pay a freaking 25bucks for it.. :(
took my height and weight... eyesight test (forgot to bring specs).. went to the doc's rm to do some knocking here and there.. and i got to say tis... whoever is that doctor whom i went to... i must say.. u are a WEIRDO.
this guy ... expect me..who is with tight skirts that day to JUMP up that bed.. and im so damn SHORT..that thing is so damn HIGH... how the hell u expect me to JUMP up! and so i requested for sth to go up that thingy.. and he said "i wonder how long u take to go up ur bed when u go to slp..hahahaha!"... who the hell will wear skirts to bed!!!! >.<
and so i proceed to take urine test, xray and that's it! tadah!!! finally finished this whole damn thing... i never like medical check up.. and i wonder who the hell will... lolx.

so..thats it! my medical check up... :))
....will they reject me from the sch becos they found a lollipop in me when they took the xray? HAHA!